LOVES

2008-06-29T20:35:00.006+08:00

没有了你,我不会比较快乐;

& yes, many things have happened.

& yes, i've been thinking too much.

& yes, because of me, we have been not rather happy lately.

well, not for every hour we spent together.

i will, try to not think so much.

i will, try to not fa xiao jie pi qi.

i will, try to not request for many things. :x

well, you know i'm greedy ! hee ! :x

up & downs is what we have !

but well.

after being through so much.
after you hong me no matter what happens.

i know, nothing can pull us apart.

i know, we're going to last long.

without you;

i won't be better off without you.

i won't find a guy as nice as you.

i won't have a nice stomach to lie on :x

&, i won't be happier without you.

our five years promise;

yes, it's going to happen.

& that's what you & me know. :D

有了你, 生活快乐了一些,

多了一些笑容,

少了一些眼泪;

& our dear poohpooh is 1 mth and 13 days old ! :D

& we are 7 mths and 13 days and 8 hours and 59 mins old ! :D
as i said ! what is mine is yours.

& your money is mine ! :D ,

i love my fatttttttttttyyyyyyyy piggggieeeeee. :D ,

2008-05-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

i have nothing alr.

2008-05-16T20:16:00.003+08:00

where are you, when i needed you. ): . wee, :D thanks shagong for buying me the poohpooh.
:D i love you the most alr laaaa. :D it's the same size as you ok ! stop quarelling with me alr !
you fatty ! i'm not fat ok ! =x . you're jealous. that's why you say i'm fat ! si fatty&fucker.
didn't went to school today, cause it's a special day today ! but someone, is having his friendly
match now, and i'm not suppose to gooo.): super sadddddd. but i have poohpooh to pei me.
i only know, that i got 60+ for english and i got 48 for geog. whatthehell. stupid world. -.-
bully me, ): then i got 28/40 for maths paper 1 ! :D *prays that i pass* :D

have you ever think in my shoes? am i really very happy in this place?
fuckyou. stop claiming that you're tired alr. don't you know i'm just as tired as you.
have you tot about me? -.- if you think that whatever you say i'm suppose to
listen, then fine, -.- . i don't care if i'm even in this world. sometimes,
i really hope you didn't give birth to me pls. -.-, you think i like this family alot?
give me whatever i want. you still can't fill up my heart de needs.
cause whatever you want to say-.- you can name this as a family.
but this family. isn't a family to me. -.-,

2008-05-08T16:21:00.002+08:00

0405
berd came over my house to stay overnight ! :D hoho. i love youuuu, -winks
i'm so bored, tmr's physics, wonder if i will pass. ): i got study ok ! i hope
i'll passs ): i want to passpasspass ! i don't want to fail physics cause i know,
i will fail chemmm, i think ~ i still don't know how to read the stupid table, roars
irritating mr yeeeeee, -.- ohya ! :D ms lee is gone, :D i'm so happy. now that
she's gone. she's irritating ! :D
傻公;
we been through so much alr, so dont leave me ok !
you can't live w/o me, and i can't either !
wo men de wu nian de yue ding, don't break it i warn you ! roarssss,
i willdo what i tell you de ok ! :D ♥

2008-05-03T10:07:00.008+08:00

0105
went dinner with berd's family. then came homeee, took pictures at playground ! :D

so don't leave meeeee, :D

2008-05-01T11:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday had cross country ! :D roars. i gotten 28 ! just 8 places away. ):
so saddd. if only i didn't slack. i really want a trophyyy, ):
sometimes, when im joking, it doesn't means i don't meant it. it doesn't means
i'm alright, it's just that i don't want to look sad. i just needed some care.
but noone seems to know, just laughing away, when i'm making a fool out of
myself. where's the pass cares i used to have? i hate this. i really do. __
then went home, :D the pass exams was quite alright. english seems quite easy
to meeee, :D hope i'll pass it bah. then geography was difficult. didn't know how to
do structed questions. crapped alot here and there. hope just to get a few marks.
i really want to do well in exams but i just can't bring myself to study anymore.
i miss the pass me. :D

2008-04-23T18:34:00.002+08:00

i really really wanted to, but i just don't knoww what to doo. ): hai. it's a good chance,
but well, ): . forget about it ! ;D exams coming soon ! and i forgot to bring my geog
file hoomme. ): how am i going to study like that ! better try my best ! i don't want
to get bad results again. even if nvr play nintendo and psp alr ~ i also don't want to
get them consicated ! ): I MISS YOU LA ! ): school's been rather normal. conflicts,
but alr solved. :D hope everything would be fine from now ! :D realised alot of things...
i still can't seem to forget. ):
傻公;
remember our 5 years promise ok ! noone's allow to break it ok ! :D
love you lotss !

2008-04-21T15:38:00.002+08:00

i'm back home after a day of studyinggg ! and i'm bored cause you're not around ! =x
i reallyreally miss you ! loves ! :D today's school was ok. d&t went smoothly,
and there isn't anything wrong ! :D helped mama to do a lil of hers. :D
my artefact's going to be done soon ! :D then miss irene lee didn't come today.
so there was free period. talked to huiyin and mama, and was asked to return to sit,
so talked to mama. fooled around with her. oh. &she kissed me ok ! make me so shyy ! =x
then chinese lesson, sat with cynthiaongdardar and ednasunbaobao. :D
fooled around. and poke bao's _. =x it was raining heavily went school ended.
so nigel cabbed edna to lakeside, and put me down at my housee ! :D
i really miss you alot. ):

2008-04-19T20:14:00.002+08:00

just went to gek poh to find ednasunbaobao, to study. didn't really study alot,
but i did made the effort to ok. just that everything seems to be tempting me.
from not studying. =x then chatted with ednasunbaobao, talked lots of stuffs.
and went to have dinner. and here i am back home. i miss you. ): i so hope i'll pass maths. ):
i still can't seem to forget anything. :D

2008-04-17T16:36:00.002+08:00

i can't get your words off my mind. i'm thinking of it, now and then.
really want to forget it. but i just couldn't. well, perhaps. i'm ought to be guilty? :D
when to school early in the morning with berd cause he came overnight ! :D
help-ed him to iron his clothes. and ended up scalding my hand.
it's really pain. and makes my hand look gross. O.O roars.
today school's isn't really nice. edna&cynthia quarelled with some sec1s,
but well. everything's over alr. stood up during physics. ):
cause i didn't come to school on that day. and didn't find out what to do for homework. ):
then d&t teacher didn't come, so we poker-ed. mdm teo's kind enough to give us sweets to eat.
she didn't confiscate our cards either, mdm teo's a nice teacherrr. :D
then after school. saw baby1&2 crying, well, xianxian must cheerup. :D
yongyao's a good friend ! :D that's what i realised today.
waited for him for a while, seen him. and i came home. & here i am,
promised him i would be studying, i want that poohbear roars !

2008-04-16T19:46:00.004+08:00

yesterday !
went school to wait for him at 530 and i was on time ok ! but when he called me was alr 531 ! =x sighs. come to think of it. i'm missing him alr. roars ! then i pei-ed him to go home.
then we went to jurong entertainment center, wanting to take neoprints.
but well, the machines all seems lan diao. so we decided to go.
pei-ed him home again cause he forgotten his i.c for the chinese compeition. 傻公 ~ :D
then i think someone at his house there urine downstair. o.o very smelly luh ! -.-
then had to toletrate the smell. then came back to my house. and he stayed overnight. :D

today !
wanted to meet edna early in the morning, but i couldn't wake up.
sorry baobao, i know you wont blame me de ! cause you love me alot right, -winks !
then she came over my house to wait for us to prepare. then we went to school.
somethinghappenedonthewaythere, but well everything's over alr ! :D
then reached school, sat with our class. did nothing. o.o then went to class.
slack in class. edna do stuns in class like a retard ~ crapp-ed with mama.then class's over ! :D went home with cynthiaongdardar, then here i am !
been editting the skin for a long timeee, and finally done. this skin took me a long time.
even though i talk to lovelove while doing it ! it's so messed up ! i want to improve on it soon.
now bernardtan's having chinese compeition, i hope he get into finals ! cause i want to see him happy ! :D

傻公;
happy 5 months ! i know yeayea, alot of things happen in this month.
and i've not been really good mood sometimes. but well !
you nvr failed to cheer me up, and that shoulder of yours was always there.when i needed it. :D
i love you. next month is half a year alr ! rmb your promise to me ok !
i want to be there for you when you needed someone to hug.
so don't keep anything from me ok,
i love you. pictures !

2008-04-09T17:29:00.002+08:00

i miss sjjcp.♥

2008-04-01T16:04:00.002+08:00

i hate to say. but i miss you. ): you're currently having remedial. and i didnt offically get to see you today ! roars ! shagong ! i really miss you. ): ???? if onlyyyy. hai. you're know it if i pass it to you. :D lol. today's a bad dayyy. i hate today. =x ok. went to watch the orphanage ! it's kind of nice ! and i went to watch with you ! awww. that's so great of youuuu. <3 loves !

2008-03-18T18:12:00.003+08:00

i guess im really stupid sia. mummy told me to buy assesment books for maths, and yea. just gotten it from popular. quite thin though. berd force-d me to buy 2. ): now i have 2 maths aseesments.): so freaking sad man ! tried doing it just now. realise the methods i dont understand. guess have to buck up in maths. :D then can pass all alr. :D stupid maths. make me fail nia. today's art draw-ed dimsum dollies. mine is cute luh. i drawed dimsum. lol. cause the people were to difficult to draw. lol. fuck all promises man ! i wanna see how edna looks man ! be my opiang baobao ! =x i sosososososo miss ednasunyimin man ! say im good la pls. :D
by end of this month, we're getting class tee. it's so long alr man. mafan ! hai !
i just wanted more time,

2008-03-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

2 more days ! <3
i seriously need more time in this world to statisy my needs. this world sucks cause of the lack of time for me. ): am i really very demanding? i just wanted more time): yea, this wish wont come true and i know it. shittttyyyyyyy. crap with kaikai for almost half a day. on me being a merlion.
he said he only had me to bully, so yea. i allowed him to bully me, please im guai la hor. :D totally want to give up in life alr. stupid life. __ is it that difficult to fufil my needs? am i asking too much, am i taking everything for granted? i bet i am. :D hah. stupid dream i had yesterday, it's so freaking exciting huh? :D ah, god. im having serious headache, and im missing him luh. fuckkkk. stupid battery of his. ): a lil more time is needed, a lil more time together is need, a lil more love is needed, a lil more of everything is need. im not contented with the things i have ! i want moreeeeeeeeeeeeee. FFL, i suck in all of them . :D teach me someone. ):
i need to understand you more, <3

2008-03-07T10:56:00.000+08:00

HELLOS. :D
im blogging ok !
erbao & kaikai , stop saying i nvr update alr. :D
woo. this few days, start to get used to everything bah.
dont really want to care so much bah. :D
rang wo bian de geng kai xin bah. :D
woo !
later at night meeting baba for dinner,
then going to watch the leap years with berddd. :D
i love you la ~ :D
now it's mdm wong de lesson, and im boredddd.
like woooooooo. :D

2008-02-17T19:51:00.003+08:00

2nd day without you;
you're in malaysia and im missing you):
thanks for the shirt ! :D
i wore it yesterday ok ! <3
oh, and i found out how much the bearbear cost. =x
yesterday went to dinner with the big family !
then came home online, :D
and you're online, but talked awhile only):
i miss you !

today,
went out with family. :D
im cheated by guardian. ):
stupidstupidstupid,
i'm soooo hurt):
roars !
today you're coming back ! <3
fasterfaster ! <3

2008-02-15T20:09:00.002+08:00

Tmr ;
boyf,
you nvr know how much you meant,
i really love you alot,
valentine,
even though it's simple,
afterall we spent the day together,
walking ! =x had fun while walking back from jurong east to boonlay ~
i love you;

xianxian still owes me my valentine present ! roars.
kahfai gave me alr ~ :D
i pass my chem de class test,
hohoho,
im pro pls. :D
won fazli:D

2008-02-12T17:34:00.000+08:00

you killed me.
alrights. :D
im blogging cus i dont want sharon to daooo meee.):
see im guai pls,
i failed all my class test ! hoho ! :D
but well !
it's cus i didn't bothered to study either, :D
will try my very best to study ! :D
so that daddy will buy me a nintendooo. :D
i sudd know what to buy for valentine ! hoho ! <3
dar, bu yao sadsad. :D
bao, thanks for everything ! <3
today didnt went to dragonboat,
mood was ruin,
stfu. _|_
then went home, :D
i've got time ~
so here i am ! blogging !
erbao ! seee i blogg-ed . :D
loves !

2008-01-19T09:55:00.000+08:00

如果我想离开,你会阻止我吗?

ytd, went kfc with
cynthia
edna
yijing
xianxian
meet andy,karyee. :D
then talks were on and blahs.
then i went to find nigel they all alr.
today i think im staying home bah !
guai kia !
i dont know what i had been thinking lately,
i kept on running away when i see ppl sad.
cus i dont want to think that im sad -.-
i think i havent been a very good friend,
esp ytd. i dont know what i was thinking,
i seriously dont.
how i hope i had the courage to tell you guys what im feeling.
but i cant,
you turned your head when you see me,
you walked away when you saw me,
do you know how much it would be if you smiled at me?
perhaps, you'll nvr find out how hurt i was.
noone knew.
noone bothered.
i dont know.

2008-01-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

it's 2 months and still counting;
boy, today is our 2 months,
and im still loving you.
and it's getting more and more each day.
you didnt summarise what happen for me to hear ! =x
thanks for the surprise visit during midnight !
even though i guess dao alr ! =x
you're the best alrights !

went to jp in the morning with berd to meet edna to go sch,
then off to sch,
skirt tio caught by ms teng, then catch my ring.
fuck her. :D
then my eye dam pain, went to toilet take out contacts.
and yeaaa. :D
then after sch went to support berd ! :D
kena say by _. damn :D
yuanching lost. but everyone say unity pro so nvm ah ! ;D
dont lose one more can alr ! got faith alrights ! :D
berdberd jiayoujiayou ! <3
fuck off if you think you're good.
cus you arent,

2008-01-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

&i know i will never ever get what i want;
today was bored ! mass run !
slackslack alot ! wahaha. :D
im counting down to 16 !
boy, i love you so.
after sch pei edna to jp buy acash
then came back to sch to wait for berd. :D
then went home together . :D .
then here i am ! counting down.
perhaps, i shouldnt stop anything from happening,
it's a choice made by yourself.
and i shouldnt stop it.
i meant good points,
but still. i think it's wrong somehow,
i wish to know what am i thinking now,
girl, i dont want to see you sad, but i know i havent been doing much though,
im not a very good friend :D i shouldnt be cherish anyway,
i seriously dont know what am i thinking la. big ffff. :D
sing me a lullaby so i can slp peacefully will you?
i really dont know what i have been thinking, i dont want to spend my nights rowing in bed.
cus i know i cant seem to _ _ . _ _ it so difficult to happen. and now that _ _ _ .
i have to xiguan):

2008-01-11T17:40:00.000+08:00

is every tmr gonna be fine?

ok, EVERYTHING IS SUA.
START AFRESH. :D .
smacksmack !
hengyijun is currently my fisherman ! :D
mrfazli is my prawn prince ! :D
prawns :D
today after sch came home, cus dont feel like going out,
then berd go paipai alr come pei me awhile,
now he's drawing lots ! :D . goodluck goodluck <3

boy, you nvr know how much you meant to me,
thanks for being there for me this few days,
i really love you <3

edna, i know everything aint that good this few days for you,
and i know i had been badbad, not pei-ing you to bugis that day,
tmr alrights ! make it tmr, cfm cfm ok ! :D i want to cherish who i have now,
and that's you, i love you <3

dar, no matter what we 3 stay together ok ! JEC. :D thanks for that msg at night.
it meant lots to me alrights, i might not be always listening to your troubles,
but my heart is always caring for you 2 de ok. :D i love you <3

erbao, i know you tried your best to cheer me up during those times, thanks,
and i love you too alrights, <3 i'll try my best to notice that you're ard me,
so that i can smile to you, and you wont say i look dao ! <3

2007-12-22T12:19:00.000+08:00

hellos pple. :D . and im blogging again due to not going to work today,
cus overslept. >.< .
then getting rdy to go out now luh . :D . later gonna pei dickdick buy his pants . :D
might be mahjong-ing first :D . hope i win bah ! :D .
ytd they were at my house,
then jess sudd cry cus her teeth there de bone too pain alr,
then i see alr also xintong,
she been unlucky for so many days alr. ):.
i really hope this time she's got nothing wrong with her,
and that shes gonna be alrights. :D . ytd i pei her until she sleep . :D
i kinda hong her to slp ok ! so good can ! :D .
then everyone sit down ard the kitchen , cus it was pretty dark. :D .
and i like the darkness. :D . so i went to sit there luh ! :D .
then off we went to slp. :D . then woke up today & here i am ! :D .
i heard everything, it's not that i wont _, it's just that, the _ is there,
who can i _ _ _ , everything is in a _ state. for now, i'll think clearly bfer i make any _ .
_ _ _ this _ is too difficult for me, for now , i'll still smile, and live my life to the fullest .
while i think clearly, maybe i really _ _ _ , or maybe it's that _ that cus me to be in this way.
i'll make sure i wont _ my _ . cus i dont want _ _ _ . if _ _ to _ _ _ _ ytd. i would had _ then,
but no _ _ . i rather sit in a corner and listen to _ _ _ _ . :D .

2007-12-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

hellos people. :D .
im blogging due to boredness. :D . i miss cynthiaongbaddie & sharonerbao ! :D
i cant wait to meet them. :D . and see them ! wee . :D .
just now went work. :D . then went bugis walkwalk luh !
then we want de thing all dont have 3 de . ): .
then went back jp luh. :D . and ddr dont know play how many times. :D
and my leg hurts . ): . stupid, worst is it was raining,
and some stupid aunty step on water . -.- . and splash all on us ! roars,
our slippers. ! ): . roars. then ddr ddr ddr went to scoopz to eat icecreamm. :D .
no matter whether we good mood or bad mood also eat icecream de alrights.
dont have to be in bad mood, so yea. not the same. :D . lol.
then after that go ddr again . :D . must slim down slim down. :D
then my leg super pain luh ! ): . =x .
then home sweet home . :D
then went to 7-eleven to buy slurppee. :D
and home sweet home. :D
nigel,jess,berd,tl,dick is at my house now. :D .
ta-dah. :D . our icecream. :D

i hope i know what happen everytime. :D .
but it means that i dont know but what can i do.
nvm, i cant do anything much anyway. :D .
its not the same anymore,
no matter what i do, its all the same,
no matter who are my _, i get back the same ending, i want to know what's going on,
maybe, its just that, i've changed? i dont know, i really dont know,
roars :D . i hate my life. :D

2007-12-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

1411-1711
went to chalet . :D . first day went to work ! then met tl's friends and nigel and dickdick . :D . then went to check in ! :D . the room was very small ! roars. =x . then we had to pull the beds down and we have 4 beds alr ! :D . then we everyday also almost doing the same thing luh ! roars ! =x . i forgot my spects ! berd had to lend me his ! >.< . blur me ! roars. =x . alrights i shall continue next time, boss looking at me . =x .
&im back to continue ! =x .
we swim ! play ! and stuffs la !
but overall we keep on doing the same things over and over again everyday. ):
then have to clean the room, boredoms ! :D .
roars, and overall im dying in there, with no spects =x . lol !
1812
jeanette's back after her chalet ! :D
&she's super tired la ! =x . didnt really slp much there bah ! saddening ! =x .
it's overall quite fun bah ! maybe we're getting another chalet ! :D .
but i also dont know when is it, and if it's gonna be sucessful . =x .
so well ! dont pin too much hope then :D .
1912
and here i am ! blogging in the new office again ! :D . im so bored here. and i promise rovin to do 2 appts, isnt that great ): . ytd mahjong-ed and won 6 dollars. :D . great huh ! =x . today woke up, & went to work ! and i still want to slp la ! =x . ytd nigel&berd came over to ton at my house. :D . we played psp all the way bah ! :D . then we went off to slp ! ard 3 i guess, or maybe 4 alr, dont know . =x . and now, i still feel like slping la ! roars ! so tired can ! then today woke up, bathed and stuffs, waited for jess and off we went to work . :D . nigel followed us to jurong point :D . but he din talk much cus his mouth was smelly ! >.< . then we mrt-ed to work then ! :D . we reach and we packet mee siam and otah ! :D . was quite nice luh ! :D . &boy, we're more then 1 month alr. :D . &i hope this is for long. :D

2007-12-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

&im in the new office blogging. :D . lol ! . &qiuqiu is sick. ): . i hope you're gonna be alrights ok ! chalet's coming soon ! i hope you're gonna make it alrights. :D . hope that you will be fine after seeing doctor ok ! :D . lol ! this few days have been workingworking and working ! and im so tired of working alr ! but wei le qian you know ): . i havent finish what i want to buy luh ! roars, ): . &i havent got my pay yet ! i hope im getting today, but if we get it ); . jess wont be getting it today. then we're gonna pay for hers first , :D . i hope she's gonna be ok ! :D . making me worry ! ): . ytd went to bugis to shop to see someone's _ . &saw ! :D . then someone's very happy ! :D . lol ! im suppose to be working ! but im allow to use the computer. :D . been playing mahjong overnights. :D . with tl and berd at my house . :D . then nowadays keep on going to bugis for someone's _ . lol ! . =x . &im working very hard on something. :D . but i havent done it yet ! wish me success alrights. :D . i want my pay ! i want our pay ! so we can BUY WHAT WE 3 WANTS TOGETHER, without pple having the same as us ! :D .
&iloveyou

2007-12-08T08:59:00.000+08:00

ah! im bored ! =x . today's gonna be late for work if FATTY qiuqiu doesnt wakes up . ): .
roars, ! ): . ytd got my pay ! wakakak. =x . but it's a lil bit too lil for me . =x .
i got 30 dollars left ! isnt that great=x. lol ! wee. im broke again ! ): . i want my next pay !
i hope monday will get my next pay without delay luh ! roars, ): . this time pay only 5 dollars per hour . ): . saddening luh ! roars, ! :D . after work go bugis then walkwalk, :D . bought same bag with jess & same clothes with tl & jess. :D . lol ! no one going to separate us . :D . lol ! then after that went back to jurong point to ddr ! :D . then went for dinner. :D . &went to find axs machine to pay the chalet . ): . the stupid machine in jurong point had to spoil ytd. ): . then ! we went to SHELL . ): . but also dont have, then nigel go back his house there de to pay, :D . sudd feel nigel so good. =x . lol. after that they came my house ! :D . but we did nothing ! wakaka. =x . then went to slp ! :D . and woke up late for work ! wakakak. =x . lol !

2007-12-06T10:57:00.000+08:00

alrights, had been working, ddring, and mahjong-ing luh !
life is just so boring, and everyday have to worry for money !
im poor kid alr alrights. ): . im dying to get my pay ! and i want it like now?
=x . :D . today's a working day again ! i hope everything's gonna be fine today ! :D
i had enough of thinkings alr,
thinking bout everything that concerns you,
the _ to the _ and to everything,
it all connects back to _,
i cant help but to think that _ _ _ _ .
fuck it . :D
alrghts, :D . short post. :D . lol. byeee. <3

2007-12-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

today early in the morning woke up at only 9 gng to 10 . then faster go bathe !
woke jess up, and she went to bathe, then woke tl up, then she went bathe,
after we're done, it's like alr 1130 + alr luh ! slow can ! then went off to work ! :D .
met edna at cs luh ! then off we went to work together, but edna go give flyers . -.- .
i hate chris, i want meet those against him de pple la ! roars, =x . then during work,
playplayplay ! lol, jess and tl la ! stunners. =x . lol ! . then after work, met nigel and dickdick ,
then off we went to outram to wait for berd. :D . then we went nigel house to mahjong alr . :D .
i won like 20 cents and lost 3 bucks . lol ! cute right ! =x . saddening luh ! keep on losing . ): .
then after that mahjong till like, uh . 10 plus bah ! jess cabbed me and tl to my house. :D .
and she went to find her mother, and here i am blogging luh ! im kind of lazy to blog la !
dont scold me >.< .
im speechless alr, those stuffs behind my back, am i suppose to believe ? i alr did so much alr, what more do you want from me, i dont know, i really dont know, wo xi sheng le zhe mo duo, wo de yan lei, wo de xiao rong, ni quan duo na zuo le . xiexie ni, :D .
i love you la ! <3 . 12 more days . <3 .

2007-12-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

wee ! im so bored alrights ! have not been blogging for so long !
so here i go ! :D . but i alr forgotten alot of things =x . lol.
everyday workworkwork luh !
and it's been without tinglei cause she went to chalet?
i so miss her can ! miss ! . :D . then after that went orchard sometimes mahjong? :D
wee ! i so love everyone that twist ard me . :D .
later going out with edna, jess, tl ! :D .
hope everything's gonna be fun ? i hope nothing goes wrong either . :D .
i love you . <3
sometimes, when i look down, means i dont want to see somethings,
i dont want to worry about those things i shouldnt,
when i know that i would, im trying to stop myself from it,
i dont want to get _ , but i would always .
somehow, i hope this kind of feeling i have, im so afraid that _ _ _ .
im trying my best not to think alr, _ _ _ .

2007-11-26T18:05:00.000+08:00

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jess&tl stayed overnight. :D
went to work as usual in the morning. :D
went to lailai to eat first . :D .
workworkwork, then after that went to jurongeast for ddr. :D
we played like dont know how many times. :D
i so miss ddr la ! wee. :D
then when eating longjohn. :D .
jess wanted to eat it , so i asked tl to go along luh !
see, jess wo men dui ni so good can. :D . lol.
sudd jess complain her eyes like not feeling well !
then we realised something ! her contact lens were gone !
poor jess look so sad over it ! ): . see her like that xintong can !
worst still cannot help her ! roars, went looking ard for it.
but gave up in the end. =x . lol . then went to take mrt to orchard !
to find berd and nai ~
on the mrt ! jess complaint that her eyes like got something stuck,
tl lifted up her eyelid and saw that contact lens there, at least we found it.
but eeeyer. =x . so scary ! lol. =x .
went there and hugged winnie . :D . jess hugged doreamon ! and tl hug a heart . :D .
after that went to jess house to help her move the bed !
but it's the guys moving it ! and the girls cleaning the house !
alrights ! i slack , and tl didnt help, so left jess cleaning it alone !
sorry jess ! =x . but you know im lazy . hees. =x
then went to my house -walking ! ):
then reach alr, berdberd went home ! then we continued mahjong !
after that bathed and sleep . :D .
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woke up by NIGEL . roars ! THANKS ALOT . lol. =x .
then on com for ws to play, and went to prepare. :D
nigel came and i played mahjong with him ! one on one,
obviously im the pro one. =x .
but no play money ! so . tadah ): . no use. =x .
then dickdick and xuan came . :D .
we played 3 jiao then ! no money again ! lol.
then jess woke up ~ tl woke up ~
then xuan and dickdick went out, then dickdick came back,
then we went to eat dinner. :D .
me & tl played ddr again ! :D . then we both try standard. :D .
after that came bac home to mahjong ! me, dick, nai, tl !
berd came after his work. :D . then he see me play luh,
i lost 1 dollar, ): to NIGEL . lol roars. =x .
then nigel and berd went home , me, tl & dick played 3 jiao . :D
then i won. :D . tl won too ! only dick lose like ard 10 + i think . :D
wee ! then dick and tl went home, and i went bath and slept . :D .
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working again ! roars,
ferlyn kind of tio sack bah ! and she kop the toilet key with her,
now we cant go toilet roars ! =x . then we didnt get pay today,
but boss promised us that tmr we will get it ! i want my rebond soon ! ah ! :D
then came home after work, as we dont know where to go . :D .

guess i wont be blogging that often bah ! =x . lol. dont say im lazy alrights ! =x
i really want my pay soon la ! =x . i want it NOW. roars. =x .

how did we treat you? we treat you as our friend,
why dont you describe to us how we treat you then !
it's not your wish? then what for say goodbye to us,
rubbish, craps, shut up, :D .
then point of blogging you lost 3 friends was alr wrong,
you were the one who pushed us away,
yes, it's others choice to think what they want
but your typing is leading them to assumptions.
you never do anything? hah ! then whose the one who said goodbye?
whose the one we been trying so hard to pull back,
but yet keep on saying goodbye in the end?
yes, we're happy ! in fast we're happier, is that the answer you want? lol
go ahead and lie to yourself then :D .

3 of us have unbreakable bonds. :D .
i love you so much more now & then . <3

2007-11-23T10:00:00.000+08:00

wee, everyday workworkwork !
it's like so damn tired la ! so decided not to work today.

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tinglei stayed overnight at my house . :D
due to me, holding onto her contact lens. =x
went to collect flyers pay ! and i got it,
something bad happen to jess pay ! but dont worry alright !
it's not the money that matters, it's that you're alright jiu dui le . :D
you will always have your 2 dajiejie to be with you de ok !
we will take care you one ! dont worry !
went shopping with the 6o dollars i got from flyers de pay !
me & tinglei bought contact lens ! and i paid for her first !
so 34 dollar flys away so easily ! =x .
i bought chesnut brown, and she bought grey ! :D
then we thought of staying overnight at my house de !
but jess mama say no ! ): . saddening ! =x .
then tinglei came only , we talk till like 3 + then went to sleep ! :D
i hope jess will be more lucky :D

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jess & tinglei come to stay overnight :D
we went shopping ! :D . cause we got our pay from the phone call one !
i gave mama papa 150 dollars ok ! see how guai i am,
actually is cause i left so much, so i give them like that =x .
we bought cardi, tops ! . :D
then off we went to buy contact lens again ! =x .
jess bought sky blue ! which is what i want la ! but they only have no degree. ):
unless i decided to wait for 1 day ! which im super lazy at . =x .
and we got the 3 tone one ! which is more ex la ! but alrights ! :D
i bought misty grey ! tl got her romantic violet ! and jess had her sky blue !
wee ! :D . then we went back to jurong on 198 ! . :D . wanted to sleep la !
but couldnt . ): . lol ! then saw jess sleep . =x .
reach alr, went ddr for awhile, then tl go meet her friend, i pei jess home first . :D
then got home ! saw her mum ! and she nagged at me ! cause i was holding OUR shopping things!
then we cabbed ! and got back to my house . :D .
then i was super tired ! and decided to watch spongebob . =x .
then we went down to fetch tl come after she got her things. :D
and i told her to bathe for so long ! then she decided to go ! roars. =x
i was supposed to blog ! but im super tired can.
then i told jess to blog first ! and i was looking at my hp msgs.
then i fell asleep ! =x . im the first to sleep ! =x.
then they 2 dont know do what stun luh ! :D . morning woke up at 840 +
went to get ready for work and ate longjohn for breakfast !
not to mention we alr was late for work . =x .
but rovin didnt scold us ! waakaka . =x

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i didnt work went as i was super lazy =x
im so tired can ! maybe ltr i will carry on with my sleep ! =x

i so love, tinglei dajiejie and jess aiai ! :D .
we 3 will nevernever be seperated ok ! no matter what happen ! :D
and jess ! your unlucky days will be over de ok !
soon will be mine ): no one is picking up my calls ! roars. ! =x .
even ferlyn knows that im dying ! lol ! =x . roars ! .

i really really want to be your _ ,
but you said _ to us first,
it's not our fault now,
but sometimes, i really think can things be rewind?
i doubt so too.

im keeping as quiet as i can to somethings alr,
i dont know what i done wrong each time to make stuffs end like that.
but no matter what i know im the one whose always blamed.
what can i ever say ? this is my lifestyle ? or maybe it's the friends i chose that dont like me?
i really dont know ! can anyone start to tell me how to love someone the correct way again?
im always the one being blamed no matter im close to who, or if i never did anything.
the arrow is always pointed to jeanette jeanette and once again jeanette !
have you ever thought how does it feels to be blamed when you dont know the reason.
have you ? i bet you dont, cause you're the one whose always blaming pple !
is this gonna be the one last time? or are you gonna drag this matter again? wo bu zhi dao !
roars. =x . stop killing us will you ? we have enough of every single thing ! stop !
i dont want to learn how to fall down. :D . im contented with the things i have now,
i dont need you to make me learn how to fall down, cause i know once i fall,
i wont be able to stand. i dont need to learn that, im happy the way i am,
and how i lead my OWN life, stop interfering for god sake, :D

i so love the 3 ! :D . wee ! never leave each other alright ? :D

2007-11-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

what did i do wrong this time,

i really dont understand .

sometimes, i really want to know the reason,

when i did nothing,

maybe _ is right, when sad, my fault, when happy, everything ok.

really want to know what i did wrong this time,
i really dont know,
and i want to know this time,
sometimes i really wonder,
if i can bear with everything for long,
i alr diamdiam through alot of things, and this is what i got in return,
i dont know what to do to make you satisfy with me alr. =x
im speechless and thus, i dont want to care about it anymore . :D

weeeee ! :D . workworkwork.
tinglei join our work ! :D .
it's like so slacking ! weee. :D
been eating snacks everyday when work !
hope i grow fat ! =x . wee. !
& i really miss mahjong la ! =x . i want mahjong !
i want to have a freee day for mahjong !
weeeeeeee. :D . lol ! i want i want ! ahhh ! =x
sometimes, really wish to stop work ! and stop everyone from working too !
mon pay day ! weeeeee.
monday is jess de exam, so excited for her ! =x .
monday can get my flyers & phone call de money !
hohoho . =x . weee ! . i want shopping !.
monday ! :D
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2007-11-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

wee ! =x . workworkwork
my leg dam pain ! redred . =x . im suppose to be sleeping now !
but ! =x . lol !
roars :D . im so bored now,
i so miss mahjong ! & i want my ! :D
lol. =x . roars, i think i will lack of sleep tomorrow luh ! =x
today some fangdong come and make me super piss
make me scold those pple i call -.-
i got a super big prob with myself today =x .
night was alright
when to find berd&nigel&dick. :D
then went shopping while waiting for berd.
but it was dick shopping -.-
me&nai following . lol. =x .
dumb luh ! =x . and my leg hurts and im still coughing . =x

2007-11-15T21:59:00.001+08:00

wee ! workworkwork super bored !
why wont you tell me ! =x
lol ! super stress over some stuffs,
but overall ! I WANT MAHJONG ! :D
stupid max ! what blah more ! should be mahjong more ! :D .
i want to know
i want to know so much more
yet im afraid.
i dont know. :D

2007-11-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

i think i wont be blogging so often bah ! lazy alr ! =x
it's been so much happening nowadays
the new work is slacking ! :D .
andand super easy la ! :D .
mahjong keep on losing ! saddening ! =x
i want to let you know
i do _ .
but it's just that i cant say out.
i really dont know .
i dont know .
roars.
i want _ _ _ _ .
roars. =x . LOL.

2007-11-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

i quitted my damn flyers job
that boss was like -.- . lol.
found a new job
wayyy better
damn that stupid flyers. -.-
lol. =x . roars. im like so tired now
and i dont know why ! =x
i hope this stays
dont leave me please,
my last hope one this . :D
this time i dont want to lose

2007-11-08T10:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday worked 3 hours . :D
so proud of myself for the first time,
i didnt slack . =x . lol. then boss disturb me . =x
then after work, waited for lingling told jess to come pei me . =x
i want my pay asap ! roar ! =x .
today working again ! with edna,jess,mabel,xiaomin ! :D
i hope it's gonna be fun ! :D .
heard that today got karyee and cynthia going for interview ! :D
it's back ! it's all back !
and i hope it wont fly away . =x

2007-11-07T10:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday was workworkwork again !
edna improved ! congrats ! =x .
after 1 hour, sit ard and slack.
bought food to eat . :D
this time boss never gob ! =x .
lol. thenthen lingling came to find us . :D
xm coming to work with us ! :D
then dickdick came . ah ! so bored . =x
then after that waited for edna,
and me&ling&dick went to find berd & nai.
feel like as though never see kaikai for ages alr . =x
weee, today work was suppose to start at 1130.
then boss told me 2.
make me wake up for nothing ! roars . =x
im dying alr la ! =x . i need my sleep .
but i cant fall asleep alr.
stupid boss. =x
i really hope the _ dont come back !
esp today ! im scared ! roars . =x .
im dying alr la ! if the _ comes back.
& the _ , is it true? or is it not true? ah !
im like so stuck . =x . sometimes ,
i really wonder, what am i to you . :D

2007-11-06T09:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday was quite okay ! :D
but i kena punish for 100 free flyers. =x
saddening laaaaa. edna also tio ! =x
she was super angry luh ! wakaka . =x
andandand yesterday i talked to orange. :D .
super fun waakakka. =x
today gonna pei tl rebond then pei edna go work . :D

2007-11-05T10:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday work was like -.-
i spend 3 hours giving out 360 .
no bad huh. =x
i was talking with other people and didnt concentrate.
early in the morning boss was like -.-
me&jess was late for 1hr 30 mins,
he told us to deduct 5 dollar,
then we say yes, then he send us to give out in bugis street
he sack my friend away la -.-
then anyhow say things ,
he told me got 3 people watching me make me so stress up
then he even told me i give out super slow .
roar ! make me so pekcek, i almost give up luh =x
when im done ! i didnt do any wrong can . wakaka =x
he owes me an icecream for no doing any wrong . :D .
i really dont know what to say,
i really wants you,
have you let me go alr?
i dont know,
and this time, i want to know the answer,
oh please, tell me?

THANKS BERNARD CHUA SHIJUN !
he help me take flyers. weeeee.
and that's my superzhuzhu alright ! x3

2007-11-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

JOB ! :D
stupid jess. slept . make me so bored.
and talk bout oranges. :D
wakaka. =x
after that went to find dickdick at vivo.
then pei him from there come back.
superbored can ! stupid dick
then meet berd on bus.
slept on bus for a while, and head keep on dropping. =x
then decided not to sleep anymore ! wee. =x
thenthen here i am ! hungry & tired . :D
sometimes i really wonder who am i to you.
even if im needed in your life at all.
who excat;ly do you think i am
i aint that _ to you anymore,
i aint that person you need most anymore,
im just a noone to you.
and i had alr face that fact.
what the meaning of that _ .
i really dont know
and i want to know so much more from wht you want.
i want to tell you i love you so much more.
want you to know i love you.
and i want to care so much more.
but you might not need me anymore.
and i aint needed anymore.
i want the past.
can it return?
will it retrn ah god. =x
AND I HATE BERNARD CHUA SHIJUN :D .
AND STUPID DICKIE. :D
and kaikai rockkkkkkks. x3 .
he help me take flyers today can.
ah my pts . yeaaaaaaaa x3

2007-11-02T21:21:00.001+08:00

wee, went to job today ! and it really suck ! i cha something =x wakakaka. PAIN ! =x and ME & JESS IS NOT ALONE WEE. :D i know i got her and she know she got me ! wakakak. =x whatever, im original alright. wakaka. =x JESSICA IS JEALOUS WAKAKA. =X and she's crapping to meeeee. ah god. my leg is pain. =x . sayanggg meeeee . LOL. =x

2007-11-02T10:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i really wonder,
if i ever needed in your life,
if i was the one you need most,
but im not, and i know im not.
i aint that perfect to be that impt person.
i really want to show so much more,
i really want to care so much more,
i really want to let you know the love is real.
i reallyreallyreally is so dam tired of life.
every single day, im being a disappointment.
i feel as though im so not needed in this world anymore.
what i want is not what i get,
what i get is not needed.
i dont know why, but when i saw _, i feel _.
i feel so ARGHS .
what's wrong with me. i want to care lesser,
yet i want you to know i do care for you.
i want to love more,
yet im afriad of the hurts i'll get.
i really dont need anymore playbacks of the past which i dont want,
dont need
i told myself to look at the future.
but yet, im always looking back at me, looking at the good memories
playbacks of life do happens, the problem just wont change.
it's always the same old thing. and im oh so tired of it alr.\
im not needed in anyone's life at all .
i have no one :D .
and i am no one. :D .
HELLOS PEOPLE ! :D
went trying out the job.
was quite tiring but fine.
manage to give out 720 flyers. :D
quite tiring cause starting was given a superduper bad place.
but end up. was quite fine alr. :D
at night went berdberd house play mahjong . :D
and won 9 plus. :D
today got jobjob again ! but . eh, jess still sleeping =x.
BIGPROBLEM.

2007-11-01T10:03:00.000+08:00

I'M GOING FOR A INTERVIEW !
wakakka. =x . me & jess finally found onee. =x
but i still want to be a icecreamgirl kaikai =x
andandand IM STILL SELLING KAIKAI BUTT :D .

2007-10-31T14:35:00.000+08:00

im so bored !
im stuck at home today !
today is the day JEANETTE IS GUAI KIA ALRIGHT ! :x
and im currently selling kaikai pigu 1 dollar 1 touch xD.
and i want jobjobjobjobjob. :x .
sometimes, i really wonder if im even needed in life. :D
sometimes, how i wish that i could be there for eveyone,
sometimes, i wish you will to say those words that i want to here,
i walk slowly home yesterday,
i thought of alot of things.
somehow, im afriad.
that the _ might be back,
how i ever hope that you were to say _.
but end up, you didnt only _ _ .
somehow, i know the reason why.
but . -.-

2007-10-29T13:01:00.000+08:00

im rotting at home la ! roar ! :x
im oh so bored can !
i miss TINGLEI ! :D
i really hope everything will be fine. :D
somehow, i really hope i will lose this bet.
i dont wanna be the _ anymore,
i want to be a simple girl.
i dont want to think so much anymore,
i dont want to bother so much either,
but everytime when i see you guys,
i cant help but to ask why,
ends up, i get the hurts,
i dont know, sometimes i really think im dumb,
knowing the ending of this chapter ,
yet i gets involve in it, and i get all the hurts back. :D
im tired of trying so hard to care, im tired of trying to hard to be strong,
i dont know why, but somehow, im not sure of my own _ too.
am i really not _ anymore? i dont know, somehow,
i rather i dont know anything at all. i give up seriously
i really want to learn how to let go of every single thing,
somehow, im not even sure what im thinking
i thought i _ so much, but end up i still _ when i see you sad,
i dont know what im thinking seriously,
i want to give up this _ in you all de _ .
sometimes, knowing somethings aint that good afterall,
and i want to be ignorance. i really hope i can. :D

2007-10-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

im oh so bored !
won money at mahjong today with baba ! :D
im so tired alr,
having to hide some truth,
deep down,
the trust aint there right?
forget it, :D
i wont request for much le

2007-10-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

today went town with ling,xiaomin,jess,baba ! :D
then went to mahjong ! :D
won 1 plus. but kup with jess, so like never win like that ! LOL.
i alr dont know what to say le , :D
i wont think so much anymore,
i will move on with my life,
i wont emo,
i wont cry,
i dont want to waste my tears on you anymore,
i dont miss you, :D
if you get out of my sight,
i'll feel better
face it,
i'll live my life to the fullest without you
IM NOT LIAN ! i didnt think im lian ! LOL.

2007-10-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

today win money !
muahah. :x
kup with edna,
keep on 5 tai zi mo, :x
then 1 person ard 6 bucks bah ! . :D
happy. :D
i really dont know what im thinking,
i really wish i had the _ to you,
i really wish i didnt had a change of _.
i feel as though i gave you cold shoulders today,
i feel that i did something wrong today,
maybe not something,
maybe everything was wrong alr. :D
i feel as though i should have just go away from everyone,
im not fit to do anything at all alr,
i merely wanted everyone to be happy,
but deep down, hates lies,
and no one knows who is real or fake to you,
all i ever wanted was simply just to know who am i to you,
but when times past,
the _ isnt there anymore,
its all gone,
but somehow, you left abit of it in my _.
i dont know if i should thank you or to hate you,
wo hen xiang dui ni shuo _.
its all the past, everything is in the past,
jeanette aint fit to think bout it alr
rewind aint gonna happen in this world,
and i'll learn to face this fact,
i will ! :D . and i will one day let go,
but i hope the _ reappears someday . :D

2007-10-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

today help dick win money ! weee
:D

2007-10-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

im so bored !
today mahjong lose ard 3 plus,
then end up won 5 plus ! :D
overall still win okay !
dam no life, everyday mahjong -.-
LOL. :x
i alr dont know how to console people alr,
jeanette is a dumb freak la !
im born to be stupid,
and not to rock something out of me,
but to suck alotalotalot . :D
i merely wanted everything to be alright,
when i know that i wont,
so i shouldnt bother so much i guess?
but seeing _&_ like that,
i really dont know what can i say alr,
im speechless,
and i kind of cause _'s hurts now,
i should have warned _ about _,
so that nothing like that would happened alr !
ROAR, im born stupid. :D

2007-10-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

WHAT AM I THINKING LA !
i really dont know what im thinking luh !
why didnt i had the bloody _ !
can you ever tell me why -.-
can anyone tell me why
today when i saw you cry,
i really wanted to ask more then everything.
but when i think that i tried asking _ that day,
_ end up _ . so ya, i decided to not ask,
but end up, i keep on thinking now,
what is the meaning of caring?
i really dont know anymore,
no matter how much people tried to cheer me up today,
i couldnt do it, i merely had to lift up my own mood,
in order not to ruin anyones mood, but hey,
i know very well that i wasnt _ . but end ups,
aiya whatever, i suck and that's it man !
i really want to know what happen, and i dont know what happen at the same time,
if i were to be gone in this world,
would you every bothered?
and when _ told me that thing,
i was 1oo% bored la hor . maybe i should come to face that it's really gone?
i dont know, and i bet i dont want to know,
jeanette will be alrights . :D

2007-10-23T14:20:00.000+08:00

I DIAO-ED FAZLI BACK OKAY ! LOL. :x
and ya you wont get allowance ! :D
im so bored ! lol, kaikai rocks okay ! LOL. x3
yay ! PTS FOR LIFE ! LOL. :x
i wasnt mentioning you my girl,
i really wasnt saying you,
im sorry if i let you think it was you,
today _ tried to _ , but it wasnt the same _ as yesterday,
but the _ wasnt there anymore,
i really dont know what's happening to me,
is it true that that the _ isnt there anymore?
i really dont know what am i thinking,
i want the _ when you tried _,
but when you tried,
it's gone alr,
i really want to know whats wrong with me !
HEY ! im giving up alr !
ll, im gonna listen to you, im not going to pin any hopes anymore,
i want to give up on _,_ . :D
i'll stay happy myself . :D

2007-10-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

hot topic:
FAZLI DIAO ME -.- DAM YOU . :X
he this ass, still remind me to blog bout this luh ! :x
roar !
yays, today mahjong again ! >.<
and i won ard 8, then cause nai owe me money !
so i won 9 from jess and ling each :D
miss lee told berdberd i lian ! ROAR ! :x
im goodgirl okay ! LOL. :x . everyone jeanette is good ! :D
yay, dont need tio meet the parents alr ! i so love me ! :D
tomorrow got dont know what thing also ! so bored !
my life is like so bored nowadays. LOL. :x
today i felt nothing when you tried to _ ,
in fact, i didnt had the _ for you in the first place,
but i like the way you _ me, im so dumb,
maybe staying as _ & _ relationship is better . :D
im dumb, so ya ! =/ dont blame meeee ! :x
i see how much you wanted me to accompany you today,
you kept on asking me, but end up i still went with them,
im sorry, but jeanette is dumb, she chooses the people ard you,
not you ! how i wish you will to see _ trueself,
so i wont have to drift from you, and i know _ was _ when _ tried _ me,
blanks -.- . :x . i really feel so dumb la, today i had the chance to finally talk to _ ,
but also as well, i didnt had the courage to start a conversation,
i want to be friends with _ as well, and i want _ to stay as _ & _ relation with me,
and i want _ back, and i want _ to get out of my life . >.<
i want many many many things !
as i said ! jeanette is greedddyyy ! LOL. :x
she wants simply everything,
yet she know she wont get it at all !
she only lies to herself and gives fake hopes to herself,
LOL. :x . roar ! i want my smiles ! :D
and i want my everything,
i want everything even if its not mine !
LOL. :x . im getting dumb ! LOL. :x . roarr !
im so bored la hor ! :x .
i want more mahjong sessions >.<

2007-10-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

yesterday !
i won 9 bucks from NIGEL !
oh yes ! LOL. :x . happy ! LOL.
thanks to berd i won . :x .
if not i also lose oneee . LOL.
LOL. and tl won 24 bucks ! LOL.
today !
won 3 bucks ! kup with jess!
so 150 each ! and thats so less !
tl won 180 ! ling lost 180 !
berd lose 3 ! yayy ! im winning again !
LOL. :x so bored la ! :x .
tomorrow have school again! BORED !

im so tired of life,
having to stand moodswings. -.-
having to stand attitudes,
what the hell did i did wrong
to have to face this stuffs?
what did i say wrong to have you to shoot me until like that
fine, everything is my fault,
happy?
i bet you are happy now then,
i really hope i was died now, then i wouldnt have to face you,
wouldnt see my actions to see if i piss you,
fuck me la -.- happy? go die man .

2007-10-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

today maybe going meet tl ! :D
yay ! i love my da jiejie ! :D
dajiejie,
but yao dan xin wo,
im okays de ! im not emo you know ! :D
i know you will always be here for me,
i know you love me .
i know de okays ! :D
i wont lose my trust in you either !
I LOVE YOU

2007-10-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

im really scared to see cuts on _ & _ hands,
i really dont know how can i stop bothering anymore,
i really seriously want to stop those cares from me to them,
i really want to stop bothering about every single thing,
i really just want a happy ending to my life everyday,
but it just seems that what i want will never ever come to me,
and i got to face that stupid fact . :D

went to bugis for superman teeee today ! :D
got it and went to long jong to eat !
saw 2 a-s-s . :D
LOL. :x . okays im kind ! i wont be bad to them okay !
i merely laughed . :x

i have enough of everything, why do _ get _ from _ .
and all i get is attitudes, and stuffs,
i really want to know what it means by caring the correct way,
i really want to know who is saying the truth,
i really hope our outings will always be fun,
i really hope we dont have to _ everytime,
i really want everyone to smile truly,
when i know im the first to cannot,
when i know it's totally impossbile,
when i know im lying to myself,

all i ever wanted was to see everyone happy,
is it that difficult to fufil my dumb wish?
i really want _ back,
i really want the 5 back !
can anyone teach me how to care correctly?
can anyone teach me what to do now?
can anyone tell me to stop all the foolish thoughts i have now?

i really want to know what to do now,
i really want to make everything back now,
how i wish a click or a press of a button ,
everything would rewind now, i want to get back to the past,
i want to make everyone treasure each other from the starting,
i want to make everyone be happy from then,
if i had a choice,
i rather i remain like a kid rather then having a mind of a 13 year old kid

i want those days,
i want those times,
i want the past,
cant you see everyone wants it? why is there no rewind button?
i know im very dumb.

i only wanted my happiness,
i only want my smiles,
if i were to have them,
i dont mind giving it to them,
if only .

i dont want to get back atitudes,
i dont want to get back only dumb replies,
i want to know whats happening,
i dont want to say things to make people cry -.-
but whatever i do it's wrong,
can anyone teach me the correct thing then?
can anyone tell me what i did wrong then?
is asking a question that dumb?
i didnt mean to ask you that question,
to remind you of _. but i didnt know you would _.
everything is my fault -.-
those stuffs you told _, i dont even know if i should believe it luh !
i cant differ what is real and what is fake anymore,
i dont know if you're real or fake to me now,
everything is just like a dream,
sometimes i have sweet dreams,
and sometimes it's like as though im having a nightmare,
if only i could wake up from my dreams,
then i will choose to restart my whole life,
or maybe i shouldnt even have appeared in this world,
appearing was alr my fault le !
why was jeanette even born-.-
so ya, i give up, :D
i gave up on everyone and myself ! :D

roarr ! everything just dont seems to trun out well this few days,
everything is like so in a mess now, -.-
i dont know why ! but everyone is like turning to,
what we appeared to be on the first time the 5 know each other,
those attitudes and stuffs,
every problem is going to rewind,
i alr forsee it -.- ,

tl !
hey ! im super glad you appeared in my life,
stop thinking that not appearing would be better,
because of you, the 5 was dragged longer,
but now it seems we cant stand as one after everything,
and nothing is your fault at all ! i just want you to know !
im so ever glad to appeared in my life to bring those smiles on my face, :D
im so glad i have you to care for meeee , :D .
i so super love you la hor ! X3

lovelove !
hey our 31o7 ,
are you just going to give it up just like that?
i thought after everything we gonna be okay !
i really dont know whats wrong this few days !
but i know you're piss by me too !
im sorry !
but i love you like how i do in the past !

2007-10-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

what did i even do wrong today -.-
i simply suck la ! that's it alright ! .
went to school
and i tio meet the parents ,
so ya,
mama sure say me or what de -.-
dam moodless now !
but have you ever thought that its you who dont want to follow me?
hey, i dont know your another cricle of friends,
why must you even _. -.-
everything is my fault la ! happy?
i admit i suck la ! happy?
im freaking an ass, happy?
stop all those stuffs will you?
i admit that everything is my fault !
will you stop those stuffs you do behind my back?
will you stop making people leave me?
will you stop controlling people's mind ?
will you stop stealing anyone from me !
fine, i suck i dont worth anything,
can you just return _ back to me?

dam it, whatever i do, i wont get anything good in return .
no matter what i try to do now,
I-JUST-DONT-SEEM-TO-CARE-CORRECTLY
am i right? everything is not enough from me to you !
isnt it? i dont spend enough time i dont care correctly,
i dont treat you well,
since _ does it all, why dont you love _ then?
i really dont know what to say alr la !
what can i even say now?
i just suck ! and that's it

kill me wont you?
my life aint that perfect as what it seems,
so what if i sat alone and forever people will be there for me?
hey, i dont want them , i want you guys to know im alone,
not them, all i ever wanted was that simple,
but i know i wont be able to fufil it, cause i bet you guys dont bother,
you make me get so fed up that i want to cry immediately,
but i bet crying for you aint worth anything at all,
i just want a perfect ending each day, which you had to ruin it everyday,
causing my nights to always end with a face face,
and currently im already frowning ! what do you want from me -.-
i didnt even do anything to you before ! what did i do wrong,
to have you to cause me such a dumb day everyday ! i suck , i admit
what else do you ever want from me ! i dont want my day to end sad again -.-
i sms also wrong everything also wrong ! what you want from me also !
you know you 2 making my life so miserable mah ! you know mah !
i really got the urge to run out the streets and bang onto a car,
of just open my window and jump off the buliding !
i dont want to think of anything anymore ! but you think i can dont think ma !
i care too much, caring until i cared the wrong way -.-
happy to hear it mah ? can you give me _ back? please, i hate you . yes i do .
i had to appear to be fine cause of you,
cause of you, i cant be fine naturally,
i had to act as though i dont bother,
but my mind keep on thinking of you !
if you were to know i've been thinking of the things you told me,
you wouldnt have told _ those stuffs,

i really dont know what to say alr ! i dont want to face it .
KILL ME WONT YOU ! IF YOU WANT ME DIED ! IM WILLING TO BE

the five isnt the five anymore,
i aint sure if i will be in it,
or if we will still stand as one right now.
in fact, we arent :D

2007-10-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

today went kbox !
went while moodless but soon was back
:D
pon-ed school ! :D
i really dont know what to do now,
i really dont want to be moodless,
i dont want to start thinking of foolish things again,
i cant help but to think of stuffs,
i hate living in this world,
cause i dont want to,
everyone have moodswings,
do you expect me to always ren everything?
im a human,
i have my attitudes too,
just that i dont show it ,
cause i dont want to,
i ruin everything always,
cant i just ever succeed in something?
i really dont know what i doing la ,
i simply should just end my bloody life,
hey, my studies aint good,
what am i good in at all?
i want a true friend -.-
i want a true love -.-
i need someone who truly cares for me,
i really wonder if you'll be here for me always when i need a shoulder,
i really wonder if i'll be there for you always when you need a listening ear,
i aint perfect and you aint perfect either,
but i always expect more then others,
i really want to know are you angry with me,
i really want to know what happen to you,
i dont know why,
i said i wont bother so much anymore,
yet i keep on bothering and ends up i simply hurt myself,
i said i dont want you anymore ends up i cant bring myself to,
i thought i could let go,
i thought i could forget,
i thought i will smile truly,
but whatever i want to do,
i just fail in it,
all i ever wanted was a happen life,
which i alr had
but i dont cherish it that much
im a ass . :D

2007-10-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

IM SO BORED
& DYING
roar,im seriously very tired of everything luh -.-
can everything just stay as what it is
if _ has depression ,
then i have a dam serious one then -.-
i really feel like ending my life every minute,
so what if i have friends?
i dont even know if they're true to me,
i dont even know if they truly loves me -.-
so what if i never ever was alone before?
so what if i look as though i have them to always be there for me?
ends up,
im not sure if they will always be here for me,
you might say im thinking too much or what
but i really have enough,
of all the backstabs ,
those come and leaves,
and those betrayers,
they stab me like a knife
cauing me to learn not to trust anyone anymore,
i wish i was died by now,
then i wouldnt even have to snatch the oxygen from the earth,
im the cause of everything -.-

2007-10-14T13:35:00.000+08:00

im oh so bored !
i think i going to be addicted to mahjong and ddr . :x
ddr was addicted long ago ! :x .
i want mahjong now ! :x
13 oct - 14 oct
pon school ! :x
due to not wanting to go la . :x
but now i dont know any of my result . >.<
abit regret luh !
mahjong-ed in the afternoon !
ddr-ed in the morning
jess pon-ed with me
nai called me to pon with him !
so it's me,jess and nai !
AND I WANT MY RESULTS !
lol, :x
then after school, ling,berd,kai,xuan,dick
came to nai house to mahjong,
when me,jess,tinglei, was there le,
then we continue mahjong-ing !
then jess told me to go steamboat with her mama and weisong !
and i went . :D
berd went too ! :D
after eating steamboat !
berd,nai,tinglei,jess stayed overnight
at my house !
and some clever gal sleep on 1 bed folded into half.
and we pathetic have to sleep on the sofa ): .
LOL. :x . everyone slept !
then nai sleep on the floor !
cause berd kick him ! LOL. :x
then we mahjong before sleep !
stupid jess win 20 bucks plus !
and i lost like 19 buck . ):
saddenings . :x
woke up ard 8,
off my alarm and went back to sleep
woke ard 10 plus, BATHED.
and then stare into space in the room without anyone knowing,
kept on thinking of things bah !
but im alrights ! :D
then ard 1o40 like that i walked out of the room,
and saw berd awake,
talked with him,
then 11 wake everyone up ! :D
then we continued our mahjong . :D
i won ard 11 bucks i think,
then i owe jess 7 plus,
so i paid her ! and tinglei lose all.
tinglei jiayou ! :D

2007-10-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

-went to watch movie !
:D
watched underdog ! LOL. :x
then it's like oh so dumb . :x
LOL. was suppose to be watching balls of fury .
but no tickets :x
and went so boreddd over the place
and went home after that,
cause they went kbox . :D
so ya ! here i am home !
and blogging !
its currently - BORED . :D
how i wish it was _ being _ me,
but i guess, it wont ever happen now,
i should face the fact,
that everything is gone . :D
i really wonder when my wish will be back,
i kept on wishing and wishing,
not knowing if it will come true,
i only needed it,
my moodswings will be gone,
but i bet it will forever not be here,
everything is gone,
every simple thing,
everything is vanish,
i want my happiness,
stop snatching it from me,
you bitch -.- stop honging pple,
i really want my wish to be fufil,
fulfil it for me ,
will you? :D

2007-10-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

today mahjong !
lose money ! ):
LOL, realise today ask jingwei out like do nothing with her also,
nai and jingwei ! :x
LOL, they 2 are so comedy. :x
LOL. :x
okays whatever !
:D
those things _ the _ .
no one knows, and i want it to be shown .
but i know it wont ,
and i dont pin too much hope either. :x
everything is in a mess,
nothing seems to work out well,
and i want everything to get back . ):

2007-10-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

im oh so bored,
played mahjong ! :D
but well, its like so bored,
then sudd everyone got all hyper,
and end of story !
i walk on the road once again,
and merories just shot into my head,
im sorry,
but i just cant let you go,
that busstop,
the place i smiled cause of you,
and the place i cried thinking of you,
im oh so gone,
the road that busstop,
hai !
everything is gone , :D
and i mean every single thing x/3
i want to learn how to forget things,
i want to learn how to be strong,
i want to learn how to let go,
i want to learn how to live life to the fullest,
i want to learn how to accept new things,
and i want to know the truth,
not a two sided story.
in fact, there's many side of the story,
im left to not believe anything,
but to believe the _ in me ,
i know it will vanish one day,
but as long as it still remains now,
i'll have to follow it , x3

2007-10-07T12:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday,
berd,nai,tinglei,ling,jess,jingwei came my house,
i was dam moodly due to somethings ,
but well afterall i cheered up?
hahaha . :D .
i came to know something ,
which i dont want to know,
but today,
i came to know something,
I WANT TO KNOW,
now everything is in a mess,
LOL. :x .
IM GONE ! hahaa . :x

2007-10-06T10:48:00.000+08:00

- I SAW KEELY !
LOL. :x
saw her on mrt and got so damn high . :x
i feel as though me,jess,jingwei was a sicko !
after going bugis to buy jessica de spongebob tee,
we saw keely when the seller was late,
and we thought we arent going to see her le
but turns out GREAT !
the seller was just in time for everything,
she was late for like dam long -.- .
but we saw KEELY so forgave ! :x
then went pay le we chiong down to see if we were taking the same mrt !
and turns out !
YES !
LOL. :x .
okays whatever -.- enough of her . :x
yesterday ! jess and tl ton at my house !
wees, :D . we mahjong-ed and talked
but stupid jessica sleep very earlie again ! ):
today !
we going edna house to studyy ! :D
i hope everything will be fine by now,
since we already knew who was the one that cause everything
after a big round, i found your true form ,
thanks for telling me you're not worth anything .
imsosickandtiredofeverythingcanyoujustsayyou_haieverythingisinsuchamess,
irealisedthatialwaystendtotrustthewrongpeopleandhappenedtoyouandyou,
whyamisuchafailureinlifethatishouldjustmightaswellendmylifeisntit?
iflivingissodifficultwhydoikeeponthinkingofeverythingyoudo?
imwaitingforyouandthatdaybutiguessyouwontdoanythingimsureofthat,
ithinkimjustcantradictingmyselfagainandihatemyselffordoingthistomyself,
ireallywanttofindsomethingtoreleasemystressbuticantfindanythingto,
idontwanttobotheranyonetolistentomytroublescauseithinkimirritatingthem,
imhavingenoughofmyselfsowhyforcingeveryonetohaveevoughofme?
toletthemstarttohatemeireallydontknowimjustthesaygirlyouallknow,
imshutuppingalreadyandholdingbackeverythingalready,
ivetriedsohardthatithadbecomenormalthatireallydontknowhowtofaceit,
idontknowwhatarewenowandimeantnownotafterthatdayorwhat,
butnowiwanttoknowwhatimeanstoyoubutibetyouwontevenbothertellingme,
ivetofacethefactthatimjustsomeoneyouwontwantde.
:D

2007-10-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

OKAY !
I ADMIT THAT IM SHORT ):
SI KAIYI I HATE YOU MAN ! LOL. :X
si gianwei and kaiyi ); HMMPH !
and yijing ! IM TALLER LUHS ! LOL. :x
NEVERMINDS !
as long as i believe im tall ! im tall ! LOL. :x
2morrow got test . ):
ENGLISH OHGOD ! ):
i know i wont fail . :x
LOL. hahaha . :x . hmm ! and vincent !
you have to jiayou ! 1oo% hor ! .
you have to stay to be my entertainer de sia !
im trying my best to smile le. x3
i will find it back someday,
i swear,
its just a matter of time . :D
i'll make everything go back man !
everything will be not in a mess , x3

2007-10-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

HELLOS !
its been so longgg since i ever update. :x
i feel so dumb this few days ! :x
i've not been studying !
i know im gonna flunk it man !
just hope i dont drop la !
:x
i want my happiness
i want my smiles,
but is it gone?
i really dont know i want my life,
i want my everything
i want everything even if its not mine,
im greedy, :D

2007-09-29T12:21:00.000+08:00

hmm !
im pratically rotting at home today !
i think ! :x
hmm !
im super bored man !
i think im going crazy la ! haha
yesterday was mahjong session !
and thanks to dickdick,
i won 11 bucks
my cardigan is sponsered !
haha , :x . i first time finally win !
LOL. :x . li hai ba? :x
i want to learn how to let go,
i want to learn how to forget,
i want to learn how to not think so much,
i want to learn how to be positive,
but im finding it so hard to learn,
maybe im stupid,
but i just cant,
can i give up halfway through?
will i hurt myself even more?
i dont want to regret for my choice afterwards,
i only wanted my happiness,
is it that difficult to give to me?
imfindingmyselfsodarnstupidtokeeponthinkingofyouwhenidontknowifiwanttobe_,
imfindingmyselfsodarnstupidtokeepontellingyouthosewordswheniknowyouwontdoit,
imcontraditingmyselfonceagainimfailingineverythingonceagain,
ijustdontsucceedanditstheendcananyonereallytellmewhattodo?
imfindingitsohardtoletgobutwillihurtmyselfevenmoreifidontletyougo?
iwanttobe_butyoumightnotneedmeatallyouhaveothersto_._.soimnotneededatall,
sometimesireallywonderifyoureallyneedmeinyourlife,
ireallythinkimsuperdumbtoevertriedto_withyoucauseireallyamnotworthit,
imnotworthtoevenstarttodoubtyouallalongyouwasjust_withme,
anditsmewhoisfoolishtoeverthinkthatyouwere_. :D

2007-09-28T17:50:00.000+08:00

GEO AND LIT !
geog is like ohmy , ):
im prepared to fail man ! haha . :x
lit i think will pass !
haha . :x . today fazi tried to cheer me up again !
BLOOD RELATIONS ROCKS MAN !
we're that same . ):
maybe one day, we'll meet ours , :D
billy & xianxian !
bully meeeee !
HMMPHH ! stupid xianxian ! . ):
big bully nia ! always like that de x/3 .
TAOYAN NI ! dont care you then you know ! :x
im trying so hard to smile nowadays,
everything seems to bring my mood down,
no matter how much people try ,
i just cant smile truely ,
i want my true smiles back,
but im so sure its gone for life,
i dont even know what is wrong with me ,
im like precisely faking everything i have ,
what the hell is wrong with me ,
i suck x/3
imsosotiredoftryingtofakesmilesomuchnoknowingwhatismyaimman,
idontknowwhatiwantidontknowwhatamidoing,
everyoneishavingtheirfunwhileimhereemoing,
imfindingitsohardtosmileagain-.-.whyareyoualwayspullingmymooddown,
iwanttoletgoiwanttogiveupiwanteverythingtpcomebacktome,
butitsallgonelikethatwindallthosememoriesitsnolongerthesame,
youchangedeverythingchangedireallydontknowwhybutiwillalwaysbethereforyou,
illbeinacornerforyouiwantthememoriesofeverythingcanyougiveittome?,
imsupposetoletgoimsupposetogiveupimsupposetodieatthisminute,
butthefactisjustthaticantireallycantitold_thatiwanttobutijustcant,

2007-09-27T21:24:00.000+08:00

ihadenoughofalltheliesallthestuffsiask_boutitandwellhahaperhapsmyquestionwasinawrongform,
orperhaps_wastryingtohelpyoubegladyouhavesuchanicefriend, :D
thanks fazi for trying to cheer me up,
BLOOD RELATIONS x3 !
thanks ling for trying to tell me what to do,
i relly need to wake up ! haha
thanks nainai to listen to my story !
:X
ireallyfindnooneunderstandingmenowcaneveryoneinthisworldwouldslapme,
tomorrowneedfindpeopledaijiandireallyhopethattheyslapmeandwakemeup,
itoldmyselfto_butiknowicantiknowicanticantanditsthefactitrieddecivingmyself,
butifailedtoitturnsouttohurtmevenmoreandevenmoredeepimfindingitsohardtosmile,
imfindingitsohardtohypercanyoutellmewhatyouwantfromememememe!
canyoutomorrowisexamalreadyandimstillthinkingofyouimfindingitsohard,
imafraidhalfwaythrougheverythingimightjustcryandnotfocusonmyexam,
imafraidicantforgetyouimafraiditsmewhostart_again.
thisfewdaysitwasyouandiknowyouvebeen_too
iknowimfoolishiknowmaybeyoudontwantmeto_too,
ireallydontknowhahaimstupidthatsit , :D

2007-09-27T16:05:00.000+08:00

im so confuse with what i want,
im so confuse with what i do,
im so confuse with everyone,
i no longer knows who treats me truely,
and all the fake stuffs from people,
is killing me deep inside,
is it that hard to find something real now?
people who are around me now,
i dont know who is real . -.-
im trying to get back my smiles,
im trying to not act strong anymore,
im trying to not emo anymore,
im not gonna shed a single tears anymore,
im not gonna trust someone easily anymore,
im not gonna go around to spread my love anymore,
i will know when and who to spread my love to,
those who needs and wants it,
i dont need to spread my love to those,
who fakes to me or those who dont need it,
seeing everyone happy will be enough for me,
i came to the light on lantern fest,
im sorry ling that i have to cry,
i broke my promise once again ,
i found out the truth,
thanks for everything,
i'll cherish the past ,
i only hope for real stuffs now,
but i know who am i to ever doubt you,
im sorry , :D

2007-09-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

im currently at home !
guai ba? :D
imwaitingforthatbloodythingfromyoudoyoueverknowthat,
itoldmyselftoletgobutwheneverithinkofyouiwillsingyourfavouritesong,
nowthatimaloneathomeimstilltryingtonotcryandthepenknifeisjustbesideme,
itisthathardtoever_someoneisitthatdifficulttofindmy_cananyonetellmewhaticando,
imsofreakingtiredidontwanttoendmydaylikethiseverydayitsucksalot,
justlikehowisuckireallyjustwanttobehappybutijustcantisimplycantiwanttofaceeverything,
butendsupimalwaystheonetryingtoavoideverythingikeepontellingmyselfaslongasyourehappy,
ireallywanttoaskyouthatquestionthat_&_askmetoaskbutimrunningaway,
todaywillbethatbloodydayimgonnamakemymindupandireallyhopeidonthaveto,
isputtingyourfingersonsomenumberpadthatdifficultorareyoujustplainlynottryingto,
ireallydontknowiwontevershedtearsonyouanymoreireallyhateyuanching-.-
ihaterelationchipsinyuanchingireallysuckalotiregrettedeverything
imtryingtopullmyselfawayfromyoueverydayigottheurgeto_._. butiaintsupposeto,
youmeantsomuchtomeyourecurrentlythereasonismileandyouwontbethereasonicry,
illbestrongillletyougoillnotdoanyfoolishthingiwillbesupportingyousomehow,
thismorningreallysuckthanksfornotusingthosefingerscauseofeverythingillletgo,
iwillihopeijustwantsomeonewhocanseriouslytellmewhattodobuttherenooneouttherewhoknowsme,
itsthatdifficulttofindsomeonewhounderstandsmeaswellandimightaswelljustgiveup,
whydoesitmakessodifficulttoeraseyoufrommymindireallydontknow,
listeningtothatsongmakesmethinkofthingsyoutoldmeandireallydontwanttocry,
illsmilede, :D
lantern fest was a total disaster for me, :D
but still nai,kai,dick,berd is the best,
even though the singing was a pollution ! , :X
thanks for making the effort to cheer me up ! . :D
ithoughtthingswouldbefineafterthatdayaftericried,
butthat_turnsouttobetheanswertotellmetostopeverythingimthinkingnow,
imkindofgladisawthat_,thanksforthepastillcherishitalot.x/3

2007-09-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

today !
suppose to go gai gai with edna, cynthia, shronn !
went to pasar malan with ling too, !
something happen ! :x .
then well, things happen and yea ! .
went to library then, but edna went home,
then library not space,
ling went with xiaomin,
then nai,berd,kai,shronn came to my house, :D
they played,me&shronn slack haha, ! :x
then in the end shronn do something lol, :x
but i managed to ask her to go home ! :x
IM BAD ! :D
imsoconfusedwithwhatiwantnowitold_thatiwouldtryandlearntoforget_,
isaw_de_andthe_thatsms_thosewordsusedtobemine,
ireallydontknowwhatthehellamithinkingimjustnotworthyba,
illletgoificanillletyoubehappyificanbutiknowicantbutidontwantyoutoknow,
everythingisjustamessnowandimtryingtosaveit,
whichiknowijustcantimtryingmybestalreadycanyouletme?
thatthingthosestuffsitwillalwaysbeinmindireallycantforgetit,
thanksforlettingmeknoweverythingthatnowiknowonedayiwillgetridofthis_.
ireallydontknowwhatthehellamithinkingnowthosestuffs,
keeponmovinginmymindmaybethatsthereasonwhy_islikethattoo,
whydoikeeponthinkingofstuffswhichialreadyknowthefinalanswer?
thatyouwontbemineandiwonteverbelongtoyouwhymustikeeponthinking,
ireallythinkimfoolishandoughttojustendthislifemanijustwantyoutobehappy,
iwanttobeyourhappinessbutsinceiknowicantfinetheniwantyoutofindyour_.
butpleasedontgivemefaslehopenowandthensireallyjustwanttodiethisfewdays.
havenotbeentalkingalothavebeenthinkingalotandalsothinkingof_.
butyourenevereverknowhowmuchihaveeverdidtoyoujustbehappywillyou?
imwillingtobeyourhappinessitsjustwhetheryouneedorwantit,
ireallyamwilling,
butibetyoudontneedmeyouhavetonsofothersanditsmewhoisdumb.
waitingforyouslowlytoeverythinghaiitwasalreadyamistakeinthepast,
whydidieverhadtocontinuethisbloodymistakeatallitsallmyfoolishness,
ireallyhaveseriousthoughtsofcuttingmyselfthisfewdays.
butcauseofyouilearnhowdifficultis_.thanksforshowingmeeverything,
imnotblamingyoubutthanksforshowingme,
itsbeengreathavingyoutopeimethisfewdaysbutiknow,
imnotthosethatyouwillwanttotellothersiwillthrowyourfaceaway.
imsorryimreallysorryiknowimstupidfoolishtoeverthingthatyouwill__.
stupidme,imreallydumb,imreally
imstupidhahakillmepleaseireallywanttocutyouknow? :D

2007-09-25T17:13:00.000+08:00

today lantern festival. :D . later gonna go boom ! LOL. :x .
pics on when they were at my house, :D

2007-09-23T15:54:00.000+08:00

im simply rotting at home today !
saw sharon blog, damn touched . LOL . :x
yesterday was abit boring la . :x
but at least there's entertain-ations. :x .
im damn bored now,

wonder whats ling and jess doing at their db training,

im utterly rotting la. :x

i shouldnt have do all the quiz yesterday, :x

im currently thinking of everything !

i hope im not gonna be emo ! . LOL. :x

thereshallbenoemonesstoday. :D

2007-09-22T19:53:00.000+08:00

QUIZ BY VINCENT. :D

Rules of the game :
Each player of the game starts off with 10 weird things habits of little known facts about themselves.

People who get tagged must write in their blog of their 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly . At the end of it , you must choose 6 people and list out the names .

-i have moodswings,i'll just go emo all of a sudden, or just scream at you, BEWARE. (:
-i always dont know what am i doing, i might just day dream when talking to you,
-i tend to forget what i want to tell you, :D
-i tend to forget what i tell people after a few sec,
-my results are always up and down. :D
-i will go hyper and after that emo. :D
-i will tell people to not emo but emo myself. -.-
-i dont really like eating, :D
-i simply hate myself. :x
-i dont know what i want. :D

okays end. :D . i know its looks abit emo, lols. :x .
but i also dont know why , LOL. :x .
dumb la . :x
now tinglei,jess,ling,berd,kai,dick at my house
nai just left, im currently superduper bored,
due to not wanting to mahjong la. LOL. :x .
IM SO BORED!, :D
ireallysontknowwhatshewantfromme,whyisshetellingmeeverything?
isittomakemeguiltyorwhTSIA,whymustshesayeverythingtome?
canshegiveupandstoptellingmeeverything?woleilehaoleile,
stopbotheringsomuch,triedthinkingsomuch,endupithinkitsmyfaukltla,
ishou;djuststopbeingsodumbla. :D maybeshepurposelyde?ireallydontknow.
ireallywanttogiveuplabutwhatcanido?whatcanihelp?irpomiseto________.
butireallydontthinkiwillyousaidyouwill_________butidontbelieveyouwill.
ireallydontknowwhatiwantlawhyamisomoodlessnow,ireallydontknow,
ireallydontwanttocontinuethislifestly,whymustshetellmeeverything.
tostarttomakemegulity?wohaoxiangfangqiman!buticantdoanythingtohelpmyself
:D

anyone and everyone can do the quiz if they want to,
IM LAZY TO TAG AS WELL!.

2007-09-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

okays, i owe ling&vincent 2 quiz. so hereby doing it now. ): due to boredness
think do ling de first ba! got more words. ):

layer one! on the outside !
name: jeanette !
birthday: o9o7 x3
current statues: single .
eye colour: uh, black i think . :x
haircolour: black !

layer 2 ! on the inside !
my heritage: whats that. o.o
my fear: any insects that crawls . :x .
my weakness: eh, sometimes negative ! . then eh, dont know. :x
my perfect pizza: -

layer 3 ! yesterday, today , tomorrow !
the first thought of waking up: how dumb is my day gonna be. :D
my bed time: mostly 11 ba. :D
my most missed memories: the past x/3

layer 4 ! my picks !
coke or pepsi: coke.
mac or burger king: mac .
single or group date: dont know. :x
addidas or nike: addidas ba. :D
tea or nestea: both out!. :D
chocolate or vanilla : CHOCOLATE! x3
cappucino or coffee: none. ):

layer 5 ! do you !
smoke: NO !
take a shower: who dont. -.-
have a crush: uh, :x
go to school : do i have a choice? ):
believe in yourself: o.5% believe in myself. :x
think youre a healt freak: nopes. :D

layer 6 ! in the past !
drink alcohol: sometimes. :x
gone to the mall: yupps. :D
dyed your hair: nopes!. :D

layer 7 ! are you hoping to !
get married: not so young? LOL.
have children: eh, future then think . :X

layer 8 ! in a boy !
best eye colour: anything. :D
best hair colour: anything. :D
short or long hair: anything! :x

later 9 ! what werre you doing just now !
a minute ago: quiz? O.O
an hour ago: like sleeping, LOL.
month ago: how i rmb sia.
year ago: this is super dumb. :D

layer 10 ! finish this sentence !
i love: anything will do. :D
i hate: myself . :D
i hide: the emo side of me. :D

i dont feel like doing the tagging part, :x . vincent de quiz shall do asap. SORRY!
ireallythinkisuck,ishouldjustendoffmyfuckuplife,
ireallydontknowwhyamistillalive,ireallydontknowwhatyouknow,
lolimdumbsorryimseriouslydumbidontknowhowtoreplyyou,
imerelylaughedandanswersomedumbanswershopingyouwontknowtoomuch,
ithinkishouldjustendofmylifetryingtoholdbackeveryonesnottotellstuffs,
isimplyhadtolietonotletanyoneknowanythingintheendimjustabigfatliar,
ireallythinkishouldjustdieoffasaptooireallydontknowwhyistheresomuchtroubleagain,
ireallydontknowhowtohelphertostopherfromthinkingnegative,
endupshecuttedandievenlethertoimjustsomeonewhocantsucceedinanythingido,
idontcaretherightwayiwanttoknowwhatistherightwayiwanttocareproperly,
butijustcantimafailureireallyamicantstopmyselffrombeingmoodlessnowadays,
icantactasthoughimhyeranymoreicantatmyhappinessoutanymore,
everydayimsureboundtoshedsometearsoutandihavetoactasthoughimjustplaying,
cananyoneknowmysorrownessinmydamnheartandtellmewhatcanidotokillmyself,
ireallyseriouslyhavesucidalthoughtsbutiknowleavingisntagreatchoicetodoanything,
ibetimjustatreoublemakerishouldsimplyendofmylifeireallywanttocut,
butiknowificutillbekilledidontwantpeopletoworryformeiwantthemtoknowimokay,
yetiwantthemtobotherboutmeimcontradictingireallydontknowwhatiwant,
imafailurethatallimsoafraidofeverythingtorewindsagainithinkitsgoona,
everyonegonnaleavemeoceagainihateactingstrongiwantmyrealsmilesback,
ihadtryingtonotspoilanyonemoodsoigohomeearlieihatetryingtohidetheemome,
andendupcryingwhenimhometomakesurenooneknowsthatimweak,
cananyonereallytellmewhatcanidosothatiambackinthepastwhereidontbothersomuch,
itriedbotheringsodamnhardbutendupigetrejectionsfromeveryone,
isprovingtoyouthatireallybotherthatdifficultyoudontevenallowmetoholdyourhand,
standingbesideyouisevengreaterchallengeyouhadtorunawayfromme,
amithathatableorisitjustthatyouarestartingtodislikeme,
ireallywanttoknowthetruthcanyoutellmethetruthstopgivingmeexcuses,
ireallyhenleileitriedbothringsomuchandintheendigotnothinginreturn,
thanksfortellingmethatmycareisnotneededtoyouthanksforlettingmeknowthatisuck,
ireallydontknowwhoamitoyouireallydontknowwhymusteveryonebelikethis,
isactingstrongreallythatdifficultisbeingemoreallyruiningpeoplesmood,
ifiweretodiewilltheearthbeabetterplaceforeveryoneireallywonder,
ireallyhopeyoucouldtellmecauseimlostinthiswordsyoutellmeeverytime,
thanksforallthisstuffsyoudidtome. x/3
:D

2007-09-21T16:21:00.000+08:00

that road that bring me memories. :D .
today, met tinglei ! chat with her !
tomorrow she's goona stay overnight at my house !
i just cant wait luh !
after school played awhile waterbabies,
today, i didnt bother so much,
even though i felt bad, i guess,
dont need it, i should not force to take it !
i really want to be not emo. :D .
i wonder when will i ever really stop being emo. hahs. :D
this are the pictures! thanks dar, thanks serlee, thanks xian. :D
and thanks ling&edna on that day, that road, those memories. :D

imseriouslytiredtodaysawheratjpibetimgonnatioshootagain,
imdamfailurelaicantevenfindmysmiles,
yetihavetotellmyselfimperfectlyfine,
tellmyselfihavetonotruinanyonemood,
todayireallyhavetheurgetocry,
butiknowicantandididntbutireallywonder,
ifanyonebothersatallifireallydidcry,
todayiblushedimadumbass,
ireallydontknowwhatiwant,
icantcheeranyoneup,
icantcheerednacantcheertingleicantcheerjingweicanthelplingcantstopcynfromleaving,
imreallyafailure,
ikeepontellingmyselftobestrong,
buticantovercomemyself,
todayialmostcried,
ievenshoutedatlingandcynthia,
whatthefuckiswrongwithmetheytriedbotheringyetishouted,
ievenhadtoliethatiwassleepingimafailure,
haieverythingisalwayslikethatwhycantijuststarttogetusetoeverything?
thatnooneactuallyknowhowmuchibothershowmuchicare,
nomatterwhatidoitjustseemslikeitsmeforcingthemtotakemycare,
ireallyamlostidontknowwhattodoiwantogivemylifeuptosomeonewhowantsit,
butiknowidonthavethegutsto,
andicantbeartoleave ,
imsimplyafailureihopeiwontemoanymore,
isitthatdifficulttofindsomeonewhoneedsmycare?
isitthatdifficulttofindsomeonewhounderstandsme?
isitthatdifficulttosaythatyouloveme?
franklyiknownoonelovesmeatall,
iknowimbeingdumbthinkingthosestuffsthatishouldjustknowitwonthappen,
iknowimstupidtothinksomuchoutofsomesentenceyousays,
iknowthatishouldjustenedmylifeisleavethisworld,
butialsoknowthatidontwanttoleaveyou,
isitthatdifficulttofufilmywishtohearyousaythosewordsagain?
imadumbassireallyseriouslydontknowhatiwant, :D

2007-09-20T17:40:00.000+08:00

okays, won't be blogging this few days,
cause gonna study,
but before i do anything,
THANKS DAR, BEI , XIANXIAN,
thanks for TRYing to cheer me up today,
thanks xianxian for trying to cheer me up,
using your letters,
even though i never really did,
i'm contented!. LOL.
and thanks dardar for the kuku song.
i kind of touched?
LOL, ;x .
thanks bei,
for trying to cheer me up with letters too!. LOL. :D .
i realised my importance in the 3 of you. :D
today was fine,
only that i had to emo,
and had to bring home all my books,
bag damdam heavy la. LOL.
then it's like trying to make me fall down,
2morrow still got books to bring home,
dumbass!

ireallydontknowwhatyouwant, ireallydont,itriedsohardtobother,
itriedsohardtocare,butendup,youjustleftmespeechless!
leavingmetobepissoff,andwalkedaway,
cananyoneunderstandwhatiamfeelingnow?
cananyonetellmewhattodonow?
ireallydontknowwhattodo,
imsimplyafailureineverything,everysinglethingidid,
itallendsupfailing.andimadumbass. whyiseverythinginsuchamess,
everything,withher,withher,withhim,hai,everythingisjustapileofshit,
cananyonetelssmewhattodotogetoutofthismess,tostopeverything?
imjustbeingdumbtobothersomuch,notknowingifpplewantsmycare,
ifpeopleneedsit,butjusttoforcepeopletotakeitwhethertheywantitornot,
imselfishinthisway,ishouldjustendoffmyfuckinglifestyle.
iwontcry,thatswhatialwayssay,butendupicrys,
likewhathesaidbefore,imattentionseeker,simplycryingeverytime,
andtheconclusionisthatisuck.nothingelse,imthinkingsomuchnowadays,
thatimgettingpissoffbymyselftoo,iwantdie. :D

2007-09-16T20:32:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARYEE LAOGONG, :D .
you're like finally 13?
LOLLL. ;x
i sudd feel like saying!all ramdon de!
I LOVE ERBAO LAAA haha
hahaha. :x. just now just crapped with her,
was super happy la. :D .LOL

hmm, i really want to say THANKS KAIKAI. :D
PTS, you're great!.
thanks for asking me to be positive,
thanks for telling me so many things,
we are both LOL-ing .
it's like, my first time knowing you're so positive la!
you rocks man!. LOL.

hmmm, and THANKS LOVELOVE
you're like always here when i need you?
i really scared fall in love with you sia!.
LOL. :x . i'm still LOL. ): .
ONE DAY. you won't be LOL le.
let's continue to be so bitchy!. HAHA. :D

THANKS BAOBAO
thanks that damned day bby pulling me
i really miss it, somehow,
that move by you. ):
even though i scold you la!
but i still love you,
i'm not blaming you!
but it was painnnnnnn! . LOLLLL. ;x
i want to see you happy!

THANKS BERD
you dumbass!
you this superzhuzhu!
HAHA. :x
thanks for always finding excuses for me to emo!
you the best liao la!. :D
thanks for always pei-ing me. :D
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!. :x

THANKS NAINAI!
thanks for always listenting to what i want to say,
even though is like not always talk to you,
but always start talking le ,
then know alot of thing de!
HAHA. :x. I LOVE IT
ANDAND ALWAYS ASK ME SMS YOU
SO SLOW REPLY! ROAR

thanks aiai!
for sending me that super long sms that day
telling me how much you love me,
i simply love you as much. :D

thanks tinglei!
thanks for those memories! LOL
i love you !
it's super nice meeting you la !
and you must jiayou !
STUDY MORE!. LOL. ;D

thanks dardar!
thanks for always crapping with me!
WO AI NI!
don't PMS le laaa.
:x
HAHA.!

2007-09-16T18:09:00.001+08:00

i was bored! so i edited pictures! :D . HMMM! I AM STILL LOL-ING. HAHA. ;x . hmm, regretted deleting alot of video in the past, now i can't even see it, no more , only flashbacks in my mind, ): . HAI!. HAHA. :D

2007-09-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

I GOT DAMN LOTS THINGS TO SAY, BUT I JUST CAN'T SAY IT OUT!
okays, i'm dam bored!. today is a dam slacking day. ): . and i haven't do my d&t jotter book, i'm bad at drawing la. ): LOL. i'm waiting for . :x . LOL. and well, i'm trying to control myself from saying LOL le, cause i am LOL-ing. i bet only ling understands ! . :x everything is just my thinking, it was never what i thought in the past, and in the present, and it would be in the future, it had always been my thinking, everything was what i thought, with no concrete evidence, just purely my thinking, 是我想太多了, maybe i should really stop everything, :D . everything will stop one day, if i where to try to stop it? my mind is controlling me, i got to control it back, one day, i will, but i believe , i will just have to wait? :D . does anyone even bothers about me? what for telling everything, when no one wants to care? i'm forcing them to care, :D . and i'm being selfish like this. :D

ireallyhavelotsofthingstosay. butidon'tknowhowtosay, otellyou, nandaowozhendexiangtaiduo? ireallywantto, butyou'llsaveme,shouldievenbelieve? yesterdayittookyouonehour, reallydon'tknowwhattosay, i'mjustadumbass,thinkingtoomuchoutofherthinking, thinkingwaytoomuch, howiwishsomeonegonnawakemeupfromthisdream,ormaybethisnightmareicansay, beenrathermoodythisfewdays,whosegoonasavemefromeverything?oriseveryonegonnajustabandonjeanetteaway?
you'llneverknowwhatiwant, you'llneverknowhowmuchineedyou, you'llneverknowtheemptinessinmyheart,
howiwishyou'llfillitup, withyourtender, butiguessi'mjustthinkingtoomuchagain, ikeeponthinkingnightsanddays,
i'mreallyscaredifailthistimeagain, idon'twanttobeafailureanymore, oneday,
iwanttheworldtoseehowisucceed, nothowifail, butthatoneday, mightneverevercometojeanette,
causesheisborntobeafailure, someday, ifindouteverything, andknowthat, imjustsomeonewhosenotworthanything.
ireallytriedtellingeveryonetostoplovingme, butnooneisgivinup. arenttheyscaredthatimightjustbackstabthem?
aftereverything, whymusteveryonestilllovesjeanette? shehatesherselftothecore, fyouweretoknow,
she'sreallynotworthanyonelove, everyonehasaadmirerinthisworld, andjeanetteisnoone,
soshehasnoadmireres, nomatterwhat .say, ijustkeeponsayingmanoone, whichistotallytrue,
ireallydontwanttobemoodyanymore, buticantstopmyselffromeverything, icantstopmyselffromgetting,
icantstopmyselffromloving, icantstopmyselffromhatingmyself, ireallycantdoanythinggood, ijustsimplyflunkeverysinglethingthatihave,
iwillenduptohurtguysheart, ishouldnotevenstartsteadingwithanyone,ishouldbeaoldvirgin, ishouldbegonefromthisworld,
ishouldstopsnatchingeveryoneoxygen, ishouldjustendmyfuckuplife, causeireallysuck, idontmeanttobeinthisworld,
andsomethingsarejustunexplainable, theemptinessinmyheart, isstillthere, ireallydontwanttobeemoanymore,
butijustcantstopmyself, iwaspositive, butyoucausemetobenegative, imnotblaimingyou, causeitsmethatthinktoomuch,
werejustnotmeantsto, idon'twant, iwant, buttheoneidontwantwantsme, theoneiwantdontwantme, mjustafailure.

okays, i'm like so dam moodless this few days. for stupid reasons,是我想太多了 :D . HAHAHHAHAH. :D

2007-09-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin! i hope it's nice? haha!
everydumbthingseemstolinktoyou,
andi'mthinkingofyounow,
everyminuteverysecond,
doyouknowthat?,
doyouknowwhati'mthinkingboutyounow?
i'mhopingyouwouldknowiamthinkingofyou,
butibet,
you'llforeverynotknow,
hai,
stupidlifeofmine,causingeverythingtobethisway,
ishouldjustendmydumbasslife. :D

2007-09-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

oh, and i would like to say!
I LOVE KARYEE!
happy advanced birthday!.
went to nai house after that, actually was gambling, but well. :D . :D

AND YEA! I DID NOT CUT!

wo zhen de bu zhi dao wo zai zuo she mo,

i keep on thinking bout . ,

when excatly i know i have to concentrate on .

what am i sia,

maybe siyi is right,

i'm just a girl that breaks guys heart,

i'm not worth anyone loves,

i'm just a bytch,

a bytch that is way too useless,

and should just leave this world,

wo zhen de bu zhi dao wo yao she mo,

dan, HAI!

2007-09-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

today never go school! due to having fever, ): . i wanted to go school today de luhs, a s s . ;D . didn't do ace learning laa. stupid sia, yesterday forget ask korkor on lap, today do end le, let's hope mr kum says nothing!. LOL. ;x .

1009
shronnie&bernard birthday!
went to watch apartment 13o3!
was quite bored, at least i got to scare me? LOL. front part was UBER bored! and i meant BORED! . i was stretching inside there, hoping i don't fall asleep la. LOL. ;x . finally the stupid hand pop out, i tio scared dao la. :D . then i finally woke? LOL. ;x . then after everything was uber tired! felt like sleeping la. :D . then bernard scared cynthia, he sudd said BOO!. then she shouted! LOLLLL, i was laughing like what, ;x . lolsss. ;x . wait, i should not be so badbad. :D . then went homeee, was talking to berd, until nai said byebye too me!. acted angry and walk away. ;x . LOL, ;D got pictures but aven't edit! so must wait! LOL.

11o9
yesterday! bernard friendly match! went to support him, didn't go to netball as not feeling well!. heng never go luhs, if not today fever more jialat sia, ;x . saw 11! lols, ;x . stupid cynthia and edna went al hua chi! LOL, ;x . then i whack edna! . LOL. ;x . crapp-ed with yijun! dam long never crap with him le, billy bullied me! i act angry! LOL, ;x . he was so scared that i really cry la. then stupid yiyi ask me cry, I SQUEZZE 1 tear out okays, then he claims it's water. ): stupid, then lala, i whack-ed him, due to ;x. LOL. dumbass yays, :D yesterday was a fine day, expect that i had to emo, :D stupid right? haha, :D . lols, i'm a dumbass as well!, :D .

i seriously got to stop being a disappointment;
stop worrying . ;
stop making people cry;
try to be there for every single one;
try my dam best to smile;
i said before i don't want to be emo anymore;
i even promised laoma,
but dumb me;
i had to break it;
i don't know what i want;
i don't know what . wants;
i can't understand you all anymore;
i want no emo-ness;
but yet;
i can't stop myself?
i'm a dumbass
dam slut and bitchy. ;D

2007-09-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

SUPERZHUZHU
SHRONNLAOGONG
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2007-09-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

i edited all of them!

2007-09-09T14:10:00.001+08:00

o8o9

yesterday!went to sentosa, vivo city!

with nai,dick,berd,kai,tinglei,jess,ling,xuan
hmm, celebrated superzhuzhu birthday! ,

went there late with LL and tinglei and aiai! . :D was suppose to mit nai they all at 11, but decided to go with tinglei, :D . hmm, went to ling house, SUPPOSE to take black clothes. but in the end, took red, LOL. ;x . so i was HONG for 1 day, ;x . hmmm, reach around 2 plus, i think, was suppose to mit tinglei at 1,30 at habourfront! but some LL was bathinggg, LOL, so ya LATE! reach around 2 there, in the end they was later,! me&LL found our kissing partner there! you will get to see it later! haha, ;x . then tl and aiai finally reach! we bid goodbye to our kissing partner, think he got gf le, beside him only, lol, ;X . hmm, then when to sentosa! haha. on the wayyyy, tinglei got hornyyyy! LOL, HEY I STILL HAVE THE MSG! lols. then reach there, saw them burying the birthday boy! lols. kelians! . ;x. then everyone was sabo-ing everyone to get into the water, WE DID NOT WANTED TO GET WETT! ): . stupid siaa. ;x . but xuanlaogong splash water on me! ): but in the we tackled LL, ;x SORRY! haha, then everyone was coldd , and my ear bleed . ): . OUCH! . lols, okays whatever! haha, then went vivo to eat, was suppose to be steamboat-ing but, LOL. so went to kopitiam to eat! and jess told bernard we went to toilet! but we went buying cakee. wee. :D stupid birthday boy should be happy he have us! LOL. ;x . then we ask him to go buy his food, and we light the candle, and stupid us, FORGET THAT WE DON'T HAVE LIGHTER. lols. so ask the food people to help us light it, then all the aunty come kaypoh, and we sang the birthday song dam loud,! LOL. ;x . but aiya neverminds de la. LOL. ;x . yays and home sweet home, took mrt with everyone but dick,nai,xuan,aiai. :D

and TA-DAH OUR KISSING PARTNER!!!

2007-09-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

i'm suppose to blog that

I LOVE

LOVELOVE,BAOBAO,DARDAR,AIAI,TINGLEI!

muahaha, ;x . today is a super nice day, ;D . i love today. esp when i saw ling de blog and tinglei! LOL. ;D i love you guys lots la! haha, andand after a long time finally i'm sms-ing fazi once again ohmygod, HOTERZI ROCKS BIGBIG as well , ;D

2007-09-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

today is netball friendly match!

AND WE WON!

LOL, don't playplay okays, ;x . we wont . 26 to 2! muahaha, ;x .
after that went to nai house to play mahjong, lose money. ): sadsad. LOL. ;x

2007-09-05T08:43:00.000+08:00

i just found at that emily ask me to do this quiz, ;x

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for;
ehs, actually anything also can luhs. ;x

Answer the following question;
1. The person who tag you is? EMILY! x3
2. Your relationship with her is? pengyous&pengyous for life. ;D
3. 5 impression on her: pretty,sweet,helpful,cute,friendly. ;D

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you?
simply everything. ;D

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
saying how much she loves me. ;x

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
commit suicide, ;x

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
i'm died by then . ;D

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? wait till that day comes, ;D

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
simply anything? lols. ;x

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
tell her how much i love her!. ;D

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
CHIOBU! . ;x

12. (How you think people around you will feel about you?)
ehs, not sure? it's people choice to hate or love me. ;D and i seriously don't bother!

13. The character you love of yourself are?
i don't love myself. ;D

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
EVERYTHING!

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
i am who i am , ;D

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them.
you're the best . :D

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you;
it's in order!
1.] aiai; jessica
2.]baobao;edna
3.]dardar;cynthia
4.]hoterzi;fazi
5.]laoma;xuelin
6.]lovelove;lingling
7.]PTS;kaikai
8.]smallkorkor;nainai
9.]superzhuzhukorkor;bernard
1o.]laogong;xuan

is no.6 having relationship with?[lovelove]
eh, meiyous!. ;x

Is no.9 a male or female?[superzhuzhukorkor]
boy!

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?[kaikai&xuan]
NO! someone will kill them! . ;x

How about no.8 and 5?[nainai&laoma]
eh, they don't know each other? LOL,

What is no.2 studying about? [baobao]
she's simply studying everything!

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?[dardar]
yesterday? lols.

What kind of music band does no.8 like?[nainai]
wo bu zhi dao wors. ;x

Does no.1 has any siblings ? [aiai]
got 2, one sister one brother and they are TINGLEI&WEISONG!

Will you woo no.3?[dardar]
for what?! she's already mine. ;D

How about no.7?[pts]
lols, he's already my pts? LOL.

Is no.4 single?[fazi]
yupps, he's a good boy! . ;x

What’s the surname of no.5?[xuelin]
tan!

What’s the name of no.10?[xuan]
yingxuan!. my lovable laogong. ;D

What’s the hobby of no.4?[hoterzi]
singing! ;D

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?[laoma&superzhuzhukorkor]
ehs, nopes? lols. ;x

Where is no.2 studying at?[baobao]
YUANCHINGGGGGGGG. ;D

Talk something casually about no.1?[aiai]
she simply out of her mind at times. ;D

Have you try developing feelings for no.8?[nainai]
lols, just korkor and meimei! . ;D

Where does no.9 live at?[superzhuzhukorkor]
taman jurong!

What color does no.4 like?[fazi]
wait, i think it's brown, no, i think it's black, lols, I DON'T KNOW!. ;X

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?[laoma&aiai]
just normal friends ba!. ;D

Does no.7 likes no.2?[pts&baobao]
nopes, they're just aiais. ;D

How do you get to know no.2?[baobao]
in school? duhs. ;x

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?[kaikai]
eh! LOLS. ;x

okays, finally i'm so done with it! later gonna watch movie with xuanlaogong! ;D

2007-09-03T09:48:00.000+08:00

i can't afford to lose you,
i don't dare to walk this road without you,
are you really gonna leave me,
are you prepared to leave me,
i need you,
i want you,
i don't want you to go,
i love SJJCP,
i'm sorry if i've hurt you,
cause i don't mean everything,
i was dumb,
i was stupid,
i was whatever you wanna say,
i don't want everything to go back to the past,
i promised you i won't be a loner,
and now,
it's your turn,
i don't wanna see you alone,
i don't wanna see you no more,
i want see you everyday,
i need you everyday,
have you forgotten bout 3107?,
our friendship,
our love,
1 month and 3 days,
are you just gonna leave me?,
LL,
i really don't want to see you leaving me,
i need you dam lots,
i didn't mean everything i do,
i won't say you're extra,
I SERIOUSLY WON'T,
and it's from my heart,
i really need you,
throughout my road,
i don't dare to see my future,
the roar without you,
i don't dare to walk anymore,
LL,
i need you.
):

i really seriously,
don't want to lose you,
i don't want you to walk this road alone.,
no,
you won't,
i'll stick with you till the end,
i'm sorry,
hai,
i'm a ass,
i'm sorry,
LL,
i'm seriously sorry,
SORRY,

2007-08-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i guess no more LONER-NESS will be with me! ;D , since i promised LL! bleahs

THANKS

AIAI LAOGONG DAREN
BAOBAO
DARDAR
FAZI
JINGXUANLAOGONG
KORKOR/ PTS
LOVELOVE
SMALLKORKOR
SUPERZHUZHUKORKOR

for being with me,
for being there for me,
for telling me how great i am!,

haha, fazi wants me to blog that HE IS HOT.

lols, today never train netball, due too much of kisses. LOL. ;x .

2007-08-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

today i stay home can! DAM GUAI! . ;D . i'm trying to smile every single day without EMO-ing. ;D . i hope i will do it someday. ;D

i'm not gonna cry anymore. ;D
i'm not gonna emo anymore.
get it over, don't make me hate you,
i'm not jealous.
cause they talk to you? and i sat alone, so you concluded that i'm jealous?
you're not worth for me to be jealous anymore,
you became someone,
someone, that will never be mine
the words you told .
IT WAS LIKE HELL LOTS.
i won't be jealous cause of you,
i won't even shed a tears cause of you anymore,
.& . is someone that i'll love them for life,
what for not happy with them cause of you?
you can say i'm evil or what, but i love you no more. ;D

i'm gonna try to smile,
i'm gonna try to not emo,
i'm gonna try to live life the way it is,
like how . does,
the way . is independent,
i want to be like you,
i really hate this moment of my life,
i really hate this kind of lifestyle,
dragging on with . ,
thinking too much,
i really hate it,
how i wish i was innocent like . ,
then nothing will be like this,
wo hao lei,
tired of this lifestyle,
tired of trying to accommodate to everyone,
tired of this&that,
why can't everyone be the same?,
why can't life be the way everyone want it to be? ,
why can't people smile from their heart?,
i no longer know the answers to my questions,
when will i ever smile from the bottom of my heart?,
when will the day everyone smile?,
when will no one be left out?,
when will i be free from troubles?,
when will everyone wish be granted?,
when will everyone stop being evil to each other?
when will my questions be solve?,
i bet,
it's never gonna be,
i'll try my best to smile,
i'll try my best to face everything,
i'll be strong, someday. ;D

i can't even believe my words,
i can't even convince myself,
i can't even smile now,
i'm so not believing my words,
i'm so worried about tomorrow,
i'm so comfirm that i will emo tomorrow,
i should just end my life,
;D

2007-08-25T09:07:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, LEARNING TO BE LONER!
BAO! . & . will never fight, but i guess, my words can't convince anything,
just like the past. Everything is gonna be my turn now, i guess, i'll be the next victim, i'm trying to stay, no matter what happens, cause i believe . will be hurt, i don't want to dissapoint anyone anymore la. i'm just simply a disappointment to simply everyone, what i promise to, i would break. like what i say, promises are meant to be broke, hai, somethings just weren't the same anymore, even at the same place, same seating arrangements, it's never the same, the faces, the joy, the smiles, it's all gone, instead, i was tear-ed. i'm such a dumbo, to be the one who yearns for the past, with . , . , . , and the fives, those past, at kfc, at library. i'll always remember it, that day, bao&me sat at the same place, and i saw flashbacks in my mind, even though we were always chase out. it was a very good experience with you guys, but now that we became like that, we didn't even talk, you even changed me to someone that unreasonable, I'M NOT! we are just not meant to be, why must you do everything to me, making my life slowly getting worser, is it cause i suggested it? and you're having your revenge? forget it, i worth it. HAPPY? WO HAO LEI. ;D . hao lei. of saying hao lei. hah. now i can't even feel that my smiles are smiling, i don't even know if they were real or fake, if i was smiling cause i'm smiling, or cause i don't want to ruin people mood, i don't even know why, i do stuffs i don't like, i tried so dam hard, to protect everyone, in the end , i got nothing in return. ;D . that's simply great luhs, i won't ever get what i should get back in return, i should start to learn this fact again, cause i forgot it. after .& . leave, i totally forgot how to be strong anymore, i'm holding back, i'm crying in my heart, i just want to have the past, eternal past, those days, are not mine to have anymore. ;D

2007-08-17T20:21:00.000+08:00

16o8
days at library with everyone! THE 9! . ;D

15o8
days studying with smallkorkor,korkor,superkorkor&edna
some with love2 and dar2
aren't you tired of loving me? i'm not worth a thing, stop loving me for god sake. stop getting emo cause of me, stp bo mooding because of me, you're making me feel bad, from love slowly making me feel it's my fault, when it's not suppose to. stop all your stuffs will you? stop making people to make me think that i'm gulity.WHEN I'M EXCATLY not. hai. you're making my life miserable, see you like that, you think i ren xin ma? i'm already trying my very best to not bother about you, i want my feelings towards you to FADE. don't you ever get it~ WHY WONT YOU JUST UNDERSTAND, you let me go, yet you're doing all the stuffs, then in the first place why did you let me go. why did you have to do all this things to make me hate you . to make me stop loving you, i thought being friends would be better, but in the end, i realise i'm contradicting myself. i really wanted to just leave you, to try to make me smile, the moment i send out the msg, i felt like as though a stone was gone, i thought i no longer cry cause of you, i thought, no belonging to someone would be so damn rockable. but in the end, you made me see my consquences of everything, i no longer know what to say bout love, not having to help bernard and fazi, the feeling of it is terrible , i don't want to see them like that, DONT YOU EVER GET IT. you're making me , not the me anymore. making me trying my best not to see you, not to talk to you, not to sms you, not to even look at you. but still you just can't get out off my eye sight. i just wanted to be alone, won't you let me? the letters you send me, are all torn. give up on me please, seeing you like this, i'm not happy too. boy, i'm sorry i had to do all this. but . i had to. cause i don't want your love anymore! i'm not worth it. find a gal that suits you better . don believe . cause you're a great one. (: . it's just that i'm bad girl. so just leave my world please. I'm not worth it, maybe i alrready fell in love with another guy? oh please, i don't want to see you bothering bout me anymore, you're killing me, i had to act happy everyday because of you, telling myself , i can't show how deep i am being hurt. I JUST CAN'T . i longer am the jeanette, i really miss those camp days. i really smiled , cause there wasn't you, maybe my words hurt you. BUT it's my intention, please leave me. hai. everything is killing me, i'm tired of acting strong and happy, not having to vent my anger, not having to cry out ym troubles, but to put on a fakesmile every now and then . it' killing me, anyone understands me? hai. everything is like, okays whatever SINGLE ROCKS BIG TIME.

i wish you killed me by now. (:

2007-08-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

DECIDED TO POST THIS PICS WITH KAIKAI BERNARD AND DICKDICK

i'm so tired already, don't you? why must you get to love me? if you have to, please stop loving me, you aren't meant for me, or maybe i'm not good enough. haha. i'm meant to be single i guess? please no more moody for you. don't because of me. I'M NOT WORTH IT. hai. so tired of everthing, people getting moodless, using tired as excuse. but i won't force for the real reason ba. (: . they'll tell me when they know when. (: . don't listen to . it's me who don't know how to cherish you. don't blame yourself, you're making me gulity. making me not dare to face you anymore. i'm imperfect. i'm not great the baby you know. is died. (: . and thanks for letting me to leave. (: